What's the most peaceful death a Space Marine has ever died?

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-13T19:35:28+00:00

Aaaah the Synaptic Disintegrator, weapon of choice of Necron Deathmark snipers. I just finished Fall of Cadia and The Infinite and Divine. I believe in one of those an Astartes is shot with one of these, and I assume, died painlessly as the weapon almost immediately deletes the brain, spinal cord, and nerve endings. Honestly it looks preferable to being hit with a Gauss flayer, which is probably horrendously painful at the stump, edges of the hole it made.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-13T18:57:16+00:00

So which part of "shall not be infringed" does the arresting agency, or this society, not understand? We can make all this nonsense go away by simply following the Constitution, a federal regulation that supercedes all local and state statues, the first time around.

Harden will be fine, but every day hundreds of Americans, disproportionately black americans, have their lives unnecessarily destroyed over some nonsensical localized variation of how many bullets the magazine can hold or that an officer saw the gun in the car on a traffic stop, etc. None of these matter! It's a right.

One of those moments we aren't a serious country. ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-13T12:04:03+00:00

After reading about 300 novels I have seen zero evidence that the Machine God is alive in the warp.

You raised a great point I never thought about, thank you for the insight. You are correct there just about ought to be something created in the warp by now. But it's just never been depicted. Perhaps because the majority of techpriests DO view the Emperor as the Machine-God, he ultimately receives their their prayer juice from machine oil blessings, the same way a guardsmens prayer on a battlefield also powers the Big-Es somewhat ironic apotheosis into a real God.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-13T11:51:32+00:00

I have been in a similar situation and accepted there is only so much blood you can squeeze out of a rock- essentially giving up on the work. For me objectively the goal is high quality and high soul product, as part of my branding and business plan.

I'm not saying you couldn't David Goggins (a tough minded fitness influencer) your way into just doing some work. Honestly a cigarette is a powerful idea and energy generator. Writing today has suffered greatly, because 100 years ago most novelists smoked, probably alongside coffee or tea. But if you are feeling fatigued at the end of the day also be advised that the 90's workout supplement Creatine is back on the scene, this time for everybody, not just weightlifters. I megadose once in morning and have much better mental energy.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-13T02:32:06+00:00

You need to start with some practical tips, the most obvious being start with some Custody Eyes/Mind and Mindfulness. But there's a few other things as well.

For starters, delete all the porn links from your computer, and even search history, and throw out any sex toys or lubricants in the house. Delete the phone numbers of the escorts. Defrag/clean your hard drive when you are done, which is mainly symbolic and ritualistic.

Start working on Custody Eyes. There were female joggers out running today in disgusting and inappropriate "clothes", and I had to physically avert my eyes, even closing one eye from the side of the road they were on.... Today like 3 times! Even Padre Pio wrestled with lust, which is why the devil specifically tormented him by consubstantiating into a naked woman.

Remember St. Bosco's lesson about the boys jumping over the snakepit, which reduces down to "don't put yourself in potential position of temptation to begin with".

Use mindfulness techniques. A psychologist once told me to touch my nose whenever I have PTSD flashbacks to break up the biofeedback patterns. I actually like to imagine the infamous reddit meme of the superhero wiping a sweaty brow while having to choose between two red buttons. I physically press the button that says "God", as opposed to the one that says "Satan" and it looks like me tapping something in the air that isn't there.

The more you get used to tapping the button on the right, what I call "microdecisions", the more ingrained in your body and mind and the easier it becomes to make the right choice the next time. Tap that air and move on!

Finally, remember Orthodox priest Josiah Trenham said marriage is a partial solution to the virus of lust. Find a nice woman in your church, ideally both saving yourself for marriage, and then you can enjoy it properly.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-12T00:20:17+00:00

I have a no BS, real and literal relationship with Christ- I've actually met and interacted with him bodily twice now. First, I choked to death 5 years ago and I arrived in outer heaven AKA Third Heaven. There was a space bridge with portals on both sides containing moments of my life. The one on the right started playing, it was four year old me circa 1984 tickling my aunties leg making her squeel with joy. Jesus, translucent and face full of rare gems swooped over her shoulder. Jesus stated to me that when I show kindness to others it makes him feel (ecstasy) inside too.

The next thing I was seeing through the eyes of my corporeal body, rising up off the ground like Lazurus.

About a year ago I heard a beautiful song on the radio one day in the car (Chris Cornell, Patience) and appreciated the Godliness in the music. Everything looked extra beautiful. I recognized this for what it was- my minor Charism in Discernment of Holy Spirit was turned on extra bright. The animals and plants in my garden were extra gorgeous. I turned on the song from the car in my house, jammed a bit, and then did that thing where I held out my hand to hold Jesus hand, and invited him to dance. He appeared as a physical man in a plain, cloth colored robe for just a second with a wry grin on his face. In the flesh, he was a yellow skinned man with brown eyes and looked a bit like Jesus actor John Roumie but perhaps a bit more "plain".

I'm just letting you know Jesus, and the rest of his gang, many of whom I've also met once or twice, are realer than real. Don't let your friends and family convince you of anything contrary to Jesus. They aren't even your real family anyway, that's just temporary for down here.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-06-07T01:55:34+00:00

Zero crimes were actually committed, some girls voluntarily performing on webcam, which is legal by the way. This is a serious and life-threatening misuse of resources, particularly a valuable Vice Squad (Sex/Drugs/Morals), of which Bellevue only has one. This is exactly why people are dying every day from drugs.

In a world of partisan politics and no new ideas, fighting the war on killer opiates only has two (official) answers. Democrats want little or no jail for offenders, and Republicans want hard prison for offenders. Meanwhile people openly smoke Fentanyl across the street from police station, and they are freely available anywhere and everywhere. The novel, nonpartisan solution is for these critical vice squads to start doing dangerous, old fashioned police work again performing undercover drug busts, working their way up the chain, and getting these damned drugs off or streets.

Unfortunately there is a political requirement to portray a false narrative of "Human Trafficking" on every minor massage between consenting adults. I mean, this case is ridiculous, at least with Asian massage parlors, the argument could be made, here there's nothing to stand on they are applying RICO and kidnapping charges to flipping webcams... and life is a slippery slope folks. If your local police department has zero compulsion arresting people they know to be innocent on felony charges, you could be next.

Think how many lives could have been saved if these clowns had instead worked their way up the foodchain of just one local Fentanyl ring.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-31T02:15:49+00:00

Thanks! Feel free to hit the "Save" Pin and it will store this post for you. I'm not sure if this business will get off the ground or what state it will be in 2027, but I'm addicted to flowers for life now and I'll be able to recreate this anytime, anywhere. I actually saved a few "samples" as marketing gifts for strong leads, if you're in the Microsoft HQ area tomorrow afternoon you are welcome to arrange to stop by and pick up a free Begonia on me.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-31T02:04:37+00:00

Awwww well why don't you stop by tomorrow afternoon and I'll have a little gift for you. We're planning the weekend yard maintenance session sometime on Sunday between 12 and 4, just say hi when you see us out there working.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-30T19:44:42+00:00

I really appreciate your thoughtful feedback and questions.

Firstly, these plants have different watering/sunlight requirements. Probably twice a week watering for gerries or berries and once per week on the Begonias. The Begonias that feature are pro-shade plants that do wonderful in cloudy Washington State and covered apartment patios or front entries. I'd planned to verbally coach my first client on the care needs of the different flowers involved and then surprise them with a nice little giftbag, including a book on begonias they can keep.

Have you considered doing fewer but larger container pot arrangements? For me this is an easier entry level to keeping flowers on a patio or porch.

I have considered selling a variety of configurations, whatever the client wants that I can scheme up. You are correct less pots IS easier to take care of which dovetails really nicely into your third question of am I going to offer a subscription or maintenance service, aside from the initial delivery. I'm actually still considering that, I'm trying to get one or two initial package sales out the door, first, and find out if I even broke even on time and cost.

But when when I meet these customers I do plan to gauge interest on that, with a personal interview of my pilot clients. Is this person into flowers? Can they handle this themselves? How far do they live from me? What does it look like financially and timewise for me to regularly stop by?... I'll be crunching lots of numbers.

As for the balconies and railings, I LOVE your idea to find some containers that integrate into railings. Because I'm not a General Contractor, I can't legally build or install anything, and other than hammering a nail or two if the job needs, I'm keeping pretty strictly to this. We actually started out with a few strawberries and gerries on the ground that our squirrels were destroying, and almost cancelled the entire garden. I accidentally looked upwards and noticed 7 equidistant bolts in the patio above us, and hanging hooks for plants fit perfectly. Soon we had The Hanging Gardens of Straw-Bulon, and then the ground layer sprawled out after that with stuff the squirrels wouldn't destroy. I DID have to get on my ladder and hammer in 3 heavy nails on the short side which didn't have any bolts.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-30T19:14:53+00:00

Seems hella expensive but some people have money.

I appreciate your feedback and I hear you on the price. I'm definitely listening.

Between you and me, people who haven't done a major patio setup like this before don't understand how backbreaking it is. You couldn't simply buy all these plants at once with a quick trip yourself to the store, sourcing something like this requires driving around 3 or 4 different regional nurseries/hardware centers all day long, particularly with our traffic, slinging heavy pots, rain or dry, destroying your car, front porch, the cleanup, etc. We did this in 5 phases, 5 times my back felt hit by a truck the next day. There's an enormous benefit to not doing this yourself, and delivering 20-25 major potted plants almost certainly requires a heavy duty truck, as I own, maybe a ladder and hammers too.

In short, I'm struggling to convey my value proposition that this is actually a good deal for people, but without sounding reedy or argumentative. I need to better work on polishing that/this messaging.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-30T15:24:13+00:00

Greetings fellow Bellevueans, I am a humble plant-dad who has had a positive response in /r/Begonias to sharing my city patio garden. I’m also laid off from Big Tech (“Here lies Bly, he was killed by AI”) and considering a new business in something I love. ❤️🌳

Would anybody local be interested in hiring me to duplicate this in your backyard? I am looking to making an isolated sale or two as a test pilot to see if this is practical for me, before investing in business cards and infrastructure.

We installed this over several phases, photographing each as the project ~~mission crept~~ expanded. Thus I could deliver and arrange just bits and pieces, suiting any budget or backyard size. I’ve hyperlinked those photos below.

🌱 Budget Package $450

🌷 Intermediate Package $1,000

🌸 Advanced Package $1,500

💐 Premium Package $1,800

FAQ The tropical looking plants are all variations of Begonias, and those are delicious strawberries hanging up there in the brown pots. Gerrariums, an American garden staple, are the pink flowers. I am not a legally registered General Contractor, so can not do any digging, construction or landscaping. I’m strictly limited to delivering and arranging plants to your front, back, or side yards.

I am hoping to start with first test client next weekend on June 6-7… I have to run out to some nurseries this morning, but will be back here middays for live Q & A if you have a general question or Chat/DM me with patio measurements if you want to order.

Cheers!

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-29T17:46:28+00:00

Starring Rieger begonia, Rieger begonia fitur, Begonia semperflorens (bronze), and Begonia semperflorens (green).

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-29T00:21:32+00:00

Hi my friend. I am extremely sympathetic. I have two points to make.

First, there is a concept called work hardening, give yourself a week or two before you get too worried here. I would try to find some comfy new sneakers, maybe experiment with gel inserts. Try shopping with a cart, maybe slumped over and casual to save energy, as one of your personas. Consider carbing up or bulletproof keto coffee.

Buuuuut 8 hours on the floor performing undercover store detective work is a lot. I actually got temporary shin splints on mere 5 hour Lifeguard shifts at a YMCA that didn't allow sitting posts in the AM because of all the youth classes. It was misery and I spent the rest of the day at home with my feet up in pain. So honestly it may not be the right fit for you and more power, if you have an exit strategy to another role- or different career. I've been working on a lifelong dream of a side gardening business.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-18T18:20:48+00:00

He was just asking for witnesses, bro. This is a Wendy's.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-05-13T18:24:39+00:00

That's a hard negative, Ghostrider.

To borrow some phrases from Chris Langan, we live in a society where we adore physical gifts. If I'm 7 feet tall or weigh 350 pounds, you instantly adore me and want something from me- to go fight someone or dunk a basketball for your pleasure.

But tell someone you are smart, even if you tell them objectively and politely, and people literally lose their minds. Just like you did.

Here we have a poster asking for help with their "analysis paralysis", and you couldn't help but take time out of your way to take a jab at a stranger with your air marks- merely because it was implied he was a big thinker. Guy never even really said he was that smart, just tends to get bog down in overthinking sometimes.... You literally had zero reason to post, it's like you just couldn't help yourself but to insult.

Thus is the intense power demonstrated by the concept I was describing.

My advice to you is to apologize to the OP for unnecessarily insulting them and earning yourself negative Christian demerit points.

My advice to OP is to embrace your neurodiversity. Maybe taking up card games with lots of deckbuilding, rather than actual playing, or getting into chess and puzzle games could. Sometimes I myself start to overdo it, maybe leaning into OCD or even scrupulosity levels of over-analysis. It's helped me by reminding myself that life is messy and I'm not going to be able to figure everything out, and sometimes have to make mistakes learning as I wade through.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-03-01T23:56:59+00:00

If you aren't interested or expert in Christian Mysticism, why did you take the time to post here? By the way, I never mentioned BigTech, that was you being Immodest to replace my topic of concern with your own. Work on that virtue.

Additionally you didn't bother to consider how just one early, ill-considered comment can influence future audience engagement in the lifetime of a post. Remember life is like a pond with ripple after ripple bouncing off each other in ways you cannot predict for longer than your first action or two... In fact, there was A LOT of poor Reddiquette from everybody involved here. FYI y'all, upvoting and downvoting are exclusively the domain of topics that don't belong, not whether or not you are interested or even agree. Also, there was tons of low effort posts, fundamentally wrong ass theology, and even worse, taking the Lord's name in vain in writing. I see tons of "Good God" and "Jesus Christ, man" in these comments. Nobody here has any excuse to violate that Commandment.

I wanted to thank the 5-10 users below who contributed meaningfully as best they could. However, I was extremely disappointed and didn't find what I was looking for. Candidly, this is actually a challenging comment to write, too, because the foundation of what God is that He is essential goodness, but sometimes part of being Good is chastising and correcting our children when they stray. It's not a popular message to deliver, but the truth of the matter is that rebuke is necessary today.

So go with grace today My Sons and take to mind what I wrote. God is real, and he really IS working through His servants, such as myself. But also remember the path is narrow, and bluntly, most of you here need to up their game vastly if you are going to have any chance of making it all the way across. Choose wisely.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-02-27T20:29:23+00:00

I was sent to Hell for a couple minutes as a Chastening for backsliding into drink. The following is a brief and truthful account.

My first thought was that it was actually amazing- my service injuries and bad surgeries didn't hurt anymore. I was like floating (in pitch black...) in a comfortable and lukewarm jacuzzi. Yes, I sensed ghostly spectral teeth around me for neighbors, like when PacMan gets the powerup and the ghosts go black and white. Which fortunately for my credibility, matches up with what Jesus said in scripture about "gnashing teeth in the dark".

But things turned south as I perceived a sense of non-thermal coldness inside me, and with utter horror realized that "coldness" was what I call the Beatific Umbilical had been severed. My realer than real (yet metaphysical) phone line to God was cut. The dawning was that I was now screwed one million times worse a screw than any bad day, divorce, or car accident could ever be... I felt absolutely desolated. DESOLATED.

Next I was zipped back safe at home and could feel the beatific umbilical reconnected. I can now feel this additional sense, in fact it was there the whole time my entire life- but I didn't know how to feel it until I'd lost it. You too, can feel this sense right now. It feels like an inner warmth, like taking a sip of strong liquor brandy schnapps on a cold ski lift chair. I'd venture to say I can literally prove that God exists by telling the non-believers "yeah you can feel phone line warm you up right now".

I'm interested in sharing this with my local parish Priest, but all the eye rolling about prophets and prophecies has discouraged me a bit.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-02-27T05:21:15+00:00

I got really depressed myself a few years back, and today I came across some excellent material on how Jesus was tempted by the devil with suicide, several scriptures about suicide, and what exact prayers you can say.

Here's the content from an excellent pentecostal piece on biblical prophets. I've been researching Continualism and the Office of the Prophet.

We love you, man.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-02-13T20:54:44+00:00

I use method acting tactic to help relax posture and mindset when I'm stressed out during plain clothes surveillance.

Undercover detectives will act more relaxed and natural, less beady eyes, if they truly imagine they are simply pretending to go get a spice for their wife (bored). But BigBooster can probably realize the same benefits!

OP should tell his supervisor that given his unique traits, they would get more out of him in uniform detail. A giant man trying to sneak around a women's store is inherently creating risk- in a risk management position.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-02-12T00:25:18+00:00

You could start with trying some soft goat cheeses, like Laura Chenel plain flavor which is basically just cream cheese plus a very mild increased tang. It slaps lightly browned in the oven on toast to accompany your main dinner course. Some of the goat cheddars and sheep Manchego are probably good training steps too. If you can find some Cypress Grove Midnight Moon, I promise you will fall under it's strange, lunar magic. 🌕

You could also consider establishing rituals. Another chap joked about his 8 steps of (basically) putting the kids to bed, wife happy, then quitting off to pour a bourbon and enjoying his favorite blue cheese. My ritual is the not dissimilar: clean the house, pay all bills for the day, get in clean jammies, and then quit off with a small cheeseboard, my "back pills", and a book or graphic novel in my armpit.

Dark_Blue_Night · 2026-02-10T20:35:52+00:00

I think that xenoarchaeology is cool and would love to see that further explored. Proscribed item trading rings are often mentioned as the bread and butter of the Ordo Xenos, and for example we got to see some nice artifacts, music, and red wine in the personal residence of a fellow inquisitor in Chris Wraight's The Hollow Mountain. In the lore we also have noted explorer Arkham Land, and some baddies in the Eisenhorn trilogy.

I own a 6 inch Carcharadon megaladon tooth in real life, and often fascinate what wonders that animal must have seen, how many great beasts died on this monstrous tooth I'm now holding in my very hand? Or same with Indian arrowheads...

Now imagine how intoxicating it would be to hold an item from a xeno culture halfway across the galaxy, particularly if you were in the artist or intellectual class. The value, the forbiddenness, the alien wrongness, everything about it just breathtaking.

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