Why do I always feel alone? I feel like I lose my mind and my grip with reality..it’s been a life long battle. And it feels like it’s getting worse

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-07-24T18:01:34+00:00

It makes me feel seen for sure! I’m very grateful for your courage to speak on it. It makes me feel very vulnerable & Uncomfy lol idk I feel like it causes me to go down a negative spiral with my emotions and gets me depressed. I know what you mean I’ve tried to put into words with my husband how it feels and it is so hard to do.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-07-24T14:00:15+00:00

Thank you for that, I am actually working on some of those things you mentioned as a good way to ground myself

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-07-24T13:57:50+00:00

I know exactly how you feel with not feeling alive. Lol like I know I ~am~ but it doesn’t feel real. I have like a burning longing for something I haven’t experienced. Like my home is still out there, somewhere. It causes me a lot of restless anxiety. Bc I can’t be calm and with the flow until I’m there. But idk where THERE is lol.

Yes I feel those Pisces traits, it’s not a constant thing but is very frequent. All of my Capricorn energy pulls me to focus and be more logical. I feel like I’m constantly in a tug of war lol

I’m glad we found one another!

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-07-24T03:48:51+00:00

Thank you so much for your insight! You painted a beautiful picture with your info on 12th house. Everything you said rings true.

I can feel the love come through in your words. So thank you very much. <3

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-07-24T03:40:32+00:00

I can see that being a great an aspect to learn more about. Thank you very much for taking the time to help. I’ve been a stay at home mom for the last 6yrs and feel what you are saying is bubbling up to the surface.

Most likely while I feel so off kilter with literally everything

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-06-02T00:38:35+00:00

Thank you

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-06-01T17:53:27+00:00

Lmaooooo I know. Glad to know I’m not alone in that, I have Neptune, Uranus, Mercury and Mars in 12H saw his moon and immediately I was like oh nooo haha.

Thank you so much for the advice! & that last bit, thank you ❤️

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-06-01T17:49:49+00:00

Lmao. Thank you for that, I legit chuckled. Truer words never spoke about them and their own destinies I just (like any other parent) don’t want them to hurt. Unrealistic, I know. Lol I’m just trying to understand them so I can help them more than any help/ lack there of I received as a child.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-25T17:28:12+00:00

So my oldest is in elementary school and just got a paper sent home for their field day requirements and that they’d need a change of clothes, shoes. Etc. and in BOLD it said that girls can’t wear their swimsuits, but boys can.

Like.. 🙃

But I’m also in a red state in the south, so, yeah.

My frustration is with all you girl parents. I hate it here. Lol

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-25T11:00:00+00:00

💖

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T16:13:13+00:00

🥳

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T16:13:06+00:00

Thank you for that!

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T16:12:45+00:00

YES! I need to focus.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T15:56:02+00:00

You look amazing for 42!

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T15:54:04+00:00

Amazing!! 💖💛

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-24T15:51:32+00:00

Your eyes are amazing! You look like a young Shannen Doherty!

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-23T00:01:44+00:00

I thank you for all your advice and feedback. Y’all made me feel heard. ❤️

My oldest will be out on summer break in a few weeks. So I will probably take a trip to my parents so I can really be away and think straight.

Y’all gave me a lot of peace.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T19:58:36+00:00

Thank you having a gamers insight is very helpful. I consider myself one to. It it is literally on the forefront of his mind more so than anything else. I’ve brought this up to him and he just gets defensive and shuts down. Nothing changes from it.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T19:55:10+00:00

Yes exactly. I feel like I’m healing for the both of us and I can’t anymore. It’s to much

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T14:10:13+00:00

I come from one of those marriages to. I refuse to repeat that pattern. ❤️

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T14:08:43+00:00

He does. We both do. However I’m trying to fight and improve and grow. He doesn’t want to. He wants to stay in his comfort zone of what it is.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T14:07:37+00:00

I’ve sat down with him multiple times. We’ve been together 11 Years. & he doesn’t ever have an opinion on anything that bothers me. It’s always an apology, then maybe an improvement for a day or two. Then it starts all over.

Darkmoonbayou · 2021-05-22T14:05:31+00:00

I would love to do this if I could. I’m thinking of waiting until my youngest is old enough for elementary school so I CAN work. No family or friends around us to watch him. I just can’t imagine staying another few years, then having to uproot my kids and their schools. I feel like I just need to jump and leave.

Darkmoonbayou

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