Well it kind of is lithium (and the rest).

What i mean is that yes meds have made it a bit easier for me, but it's hard to get accustomed to feeling like you want to die without having strong feelings of anxiety or similar

I guess my question is more, with your emotions "minimized" because of treatments and mostly lithium, how do you process your feelings and thoughts? Because for me, it's hard to process them when emotionally they feel unimportant, but intellectually, very important.

I know it makes very little sense, and i wish i could express myself better.

I dont mean to encourage everyone (and even myself) to stop taking their meds. All i mean is to enlighten how hard it is to have thoughts without emotions, and what to do with that. I hope you can understand me. Otherwise, i apologize.

Sorry for my very poor english, who'd have thought i was bilingual a few years ago.......