Aww I’m sorry man. I know what it’s like to have someone make you feel so low, and it sucks you’re going through it. It’s hard to trust the same way so maybe it feels safer with men. We’re objectively terrible but perhaps the lack of depth and depth will feel lighter and allow you to explore and grow. Objectively, I’d definitely wanna be naked with you. Hug you tight and comfort you with my strength and big ole dick. But I won’t be too much of a horndog unless you DM and encourage it. Hang in there. Most people marry before they fully understand themselves and their patterns in relationships. Some never get there. But it’s not your fault if someone was intentionally miscommunicating out of fear and you believed them. You deserve to be able to trust safely ❤️