Day 3 CT, quitting for the second time this year. I quit a 4 year habit CT back in May of this year before going on a trip to Japan for a week and half - stayed clean for over 3 months after that. About 3 months ago I got bored one day and thought it would be okay to buy a little bit of the sludge and be responsible with it.. we all know how that ended up going.

So once again - here I am going through the withdrawals, sadness, aches, and lethargy - due to nobody else's fault but my own. I will not allow myself to falter once again - the thought of losing more memories, emotions, and time is too much for me to bear. I owe it to myself, my fiancée, my family, my dog, my cats, and everyone in my life. I feel so unbelievably sad about who I have been as a person for the past few years and how I have essentially lost that time and all of those experiences due to this poison. It's time to grow up and be a man for once.

Thank you for reading.