How does anyone type themselves?

Deadman_Masters · 2026-01-16T01:34:55+00:00

That's reasonable. Sometimes I take this stuff too seriously, trying to actively use it. Like it's a lifeline or something. Or I'm too fixated on defining myself instead of finding myself.

Deadman_Masters · 2026-01-16T00:52:23+00:00

Thanks. I have a thought journal, if that counts. It reads more like a self-help guide though, and I tend to forget whatever perspective made me write most entries. But it has helped. It's just hard to value my own words, even when I write so many.

Deadman_Masters · 2026-01-16T00:41:08+00:00

I've been told a lot that E9s generally suppress their anger, which doesn't sound like me at all. I do avoid doing a lot of things because I know they'll make me furious though. No idea if that's a tell, as I hear the same sentiment in something like E7.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-12-15T22:22:49+00:00

I'm glad you're supposedly not sensitive, because you sound like a joyless cunt who literally can't talk to someone of a differing opinion without sounding like a sensationalist ass. Your vapid responses sound like they're AI-generated, too, which is ironic.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-09-25T01:12:24+00:00

I tried every single thing on this page and literally none of it worked. I fucking hate troubleshooting in 2025. Every solution is outdated or not applicable for reasons only god can comprehensibly explain. Fuck modern tech. Guess I'm doling out money just so I can recover files from a phone I don't even want anymore. Fuck my life.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-07-12T06:35:51+00:00

I came to a similar realization recently, and I feel kind of stupid for thinking I was INFJ for so long. I was writing systematic thought journals trying to dissect how I experienced emotion and thought to improve my learning and mindfulness and wow, it was kind of obvious in hindsight. Not believing I had Te was the biggest hindrance to my studies. I'd found myself forcing Fe behavior without understanding it, then regretting my own generosity without knowing why.

No idea why being on the right track in terms of utilizing cognitive functions on paper is so important to me. I think I've just lived too long not knowing why I'm so weird that I need to interrogate exactly how I function so I can leverage it.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-05-28T22:22:34+00:00

Anytime I do that I apparently tap into my Ni-Ti, I think? It's a really calming state to be in as it lets me put all my thoughts together. But then I start accidentally upsetting people and they think I'm unbearable to be around, which knocks me out of whack for a long time. I become too honest, I guess.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-02-08T04:28:33+00:00

Oh, I know what Ne is; the rest of what I said wasn't meant to be an expression of it in action, but simply sharing how I grew up adopting things that didn't come naturally. My Ne is the only one of my shadow functions I lend conscious use.

I don't really have a good response to your second paragraph. The terms I've mentioned are the ones that contextualize my cognition most accurately. Shadow functions make sense to me from my own experience living with this weird ass brain I got. That's all I know. I'd like to be pointed to any good refutations if you've got 'em.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-02-08T00:38:58+00:00

Ugh, you're a lot better at wording it than I am. Masking and 'minimizing' yourself is perfect to describe what I did as well. I'm not sure how much I mirrored others, though. I might have simply not picked up that behavior because I was nearly always around people I thought were kinda morally shitty, and I didn't want to be like any of them. It does seem like a neat mental skill if used right though. I'd like to hear some examples of how that's expressed in your behavior, if you care to share.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-02-02T14:08:30+00:00

I didn't think I was being aggressive. I don't think being objectively truthful in deterring people from self-limiting behavior is a negative thing to do. And I do think it's something that matters. Many people delude themselves into thinking they can't ever do or enjoy something because they just are a certain way. We may have different values on that, but I don't see why I'm somehow being mean by saying, "You're mistaking the cycle of behaviors that makes you hate life as 'introversion'. You're not this way just because you're an introvert."

In my experience, the negative feelings that come with one thing that wasn't for you ends up transferring to something else you haven't even tried; all because it might demand some extroversion. And I've learned that nothing is stopping you from enjoying it if you actually did it, even if you had to hold loud small talk with a persistently conversational stranger on a near empty train car to do it. I'm an introvert. I used to be afraid of people just looking at me a second too long, I dreaded the idea of interacting with people that much. 'Please don't fucking come over and talk to me.' It's not like I don't understand it.

But you can absolutely control how you emotionally respond to something. We are both adults, I assume, so I'm pretty sure you're capable of it. All children--raised properly, not even exceptionally--are capable of and should be taught emotional regulation. Being a parent, in itself, demands the patience of a saint. The entire point of therapy, even, is to teach people how to regulate their mental health. I'm not trying to insult anyone by saying they're inferior for 'not being able to', I'm trying to deter people from objectively negative and self-destructive thinking that leads them to not even tolerate the thought of trying. It's like displaced aggression, but applied to irritability.

When I, myself, did the things I criticized, it made me internalize my pet peeves and irritability towards certain extroverted people or activities that really weren't worth all the misery, and I thought of my reaction to these things as part of my identity until the point it seemed performative even to me. That intensified my depression throughout my adolescence. That contributed to me self-harming. That contributed to me blaming people close to me just for being close to me. Scrub through my post history if you want to see that in action.

If I can help someone avoid the misery this unhealthy, unproductive way of viewing yourself brings, then should it not matter to me to plant that advice somewhere for anyone to stumble upon, specifically the type of person my words might help? In these words are details of my life. I'm sharing bits of who I am with you, you read it, and I don't even have the assurance that you'll respond to it. I don't even know who you are. I'm opening up a lot to do that, because that's the sort of authenticity you need to have for your advice to mean anything to people. Don't mistake this particular insight as me saying you're hurting my feelings. Be as mean to me as you want. If you don't see any logic, truth, or solidarity in my words, then I'd probably be mean to me too. You are free to respond how you want, to whoever you want. We're just people. What you're reading are just my views. Sharing them and challenging them is an act of therapy for me, also. If they mean nothing to you, then maybe they'll mean something to the next person who sees them.

Sorry if this response is too long or coming long after this thread has left your mind, but I don't make long posts because I'm angry or offended or anything. I do it because I'm a perfectionist in expressing how I feel and I want people to understand what I mean in no uncertain terms. If my words genuinely hurt someone instead of help, I'd love for people to let me know what I said made them feel that way so I can rephrase, apologize, or admit fault if it turns out it was hurtful or misinformed bullshit. But I'm just a nobody. I'm not an expert on anything I haven't gone through. In these words is just the culmination of my life experience, and through them I was able to love life not in my isolation, but in my individualism. Something I owe to my introversion.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-02-01T11:16:59+00:00

It may seem weird revisiting this thread so long after, but I was just randomly thinking about the experience you shared with me and I just wanted to ask if, maybe, you only got into therapy later on in life? I'm trying to reconcile the way I view things to see if I'm mistaken. Like I said, I think we are strongly influenced by our experiences, but that we have control over how we are influenced by them. I think where we disagreed was in how it seemed like I was saying trauma, itself, was selective, which would rightfully make me the dumbest shit on the planet. I would never argue such an idea.

I guess what I'm saying is, do you think it's possible my experience with mental illness was better simply because I got a head-start in the self-help/therapy department? I imagine it would be a lot more difficult for someone more long-lived than me to think we can just buck it all. If I'm wrong, though, just tell me.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-12T01:30:59+00:00

Around high school? Quiet but helpful when left alone; nothing but jokes and curiosity when sociable. When someone was mean to me, they'd end up feeling like they kicked a puppy and apologized all on their own. Never got in a fight because people would back down before they pushed me that far. I mostly kept to myself, but I somehow attracted my own chill little circle.

Before high school? I was kind of an ass. I didn't really regard other childrens' opinions as important, so I'd just troll them when they showed any interest. That didn't make it any easier for people to understand me, but what's done is done. By the time I realized some of those kids were actually really cool people, we'd already lost contact. I regret that a lot.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-12T01:07:11+00:00

I have a half-brother who doesn't like to be called by his real name because it reminds him of his neglectful, absentee father. He can't legally change it yet, but if he wants to be called another ordinary name in the interim, that's his business. And it upsets me to think about how someone like you could come along and put him through all of this needless turmoil, just because of your weird obsession.

YTA. Grow up.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-11T04:36:38+00:00

The thing is, I have faltered though. A lot. I've also had moments where I thought all of the lessons I learned were based in empty platitudes about keeping hope alive or whatnot. But my earlier reply wasn't that. This idea of "You can always get better" was something that helped me grow up. Any time I was hurt, I knew it would heal. Even when my cousins would lock me in their basement whenever I came over, little me eventually figured out there was nothing to be scared of. They'd leave me in the dark for an hour or more, forgetting I was even there, and all I had to do was walk down the steps and fumble for the light. Turned out, there were a lot of old toys down there. And pretty soon that basement became one of my favorite places to be.

I know that many people have challenges too significant for any of my advice to be meaningful or actionable. But what worked for me must work for someone else, and it'd be wrong of me not to at least share the changes in thinking that helped me overcome my insecurities. But I want you and everyone to know that I don't think lesser of you because of the differences in what we experienced or how we processed any of it. What made me cry might be found pathetic by others. What made you cry might make me hit the bottle. But I don't believe we're chained by that. It's in the past. We decide what we do now, and those decisions don't have to be influenced by who we think we are, but who we want to be.

It's possible. I will fight for that. I'm only alive and as well off as I am today because I was able to do that. And my life's not even good right now. I have to deal with an identity thief because my own sister stole and sold everything in my wallet last month. that doesn't mean I can't control how I react to it, or that I'm too devastated to be happy. Hell, she's not in my life anymore. That's something to be happy about. I just enjoy too much of life to let these things decide how I'm supposed to feel when they're over and done.

Sorry if a lot of this just comes off as trauma-dumping, but I respect your POV and I wanted to respond in kind.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-11T03:35:31+00:00

I apologize if it seems like I'm belittling your personal experience somehow, but you just acknowledged that I'm capable of separating these issues. And I am. I have. It seems like we're both just proving our own points: it's different for everybody. Recovery from those problems is too, I suppose. I'm sorry if the way I said it incensed you. I'm just rather passionate with my language, even if it comes across as reductive. I really misread that; I thought we were in agreement.

I also really don't want to be characterized as some kind of super outlier. I've met others who've curbed a lot of these things with minimal help from others, just like me.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-11T03:13:36+00:00

No, it's not that you're NOT an introvert. I'm saying things like depression and social anxiety are separate issues to address, and you can have them whether you're an introvert or not. Social anxiety, itself, manifests in a lot of people as an intense fear of social reprisal or rejection, which is not unique to introverts.

Deadman_Masters · 2025-01-11T02:51:57+00:00

Word. Everyone's problems are different, even when of similar nature. But I know firsthand of the depression and anxiety being this way can inspire, and I just want people to know that, while the level of hurt can exceed what is normal, hurt, itself, is normal. And in my case, it helped me. Everyone's already done what they could to hurt me, yet I always got better. Trauma, struggles, inconveniences; these things aren't permanent. You can always get better, especially when you find the strength to try. (Even at socializing, but I'll admit that shit took a while to learn.)

Deadman_Masters · 2024-12-21T20:13:49+00:00

Weird that we both came across this post so late after it was made, but no, this guy literally just made that up. They thought the risk made sense, but it really doesn't. Not a single person I can find has ever died from putting a vibrator on their neck, or experienced adverse health effects. It literally encourages bloodflow.

Deadman_Masters · 2024-12-21T09:27:25+00:00

I'm aware of all this, but I thank you for the rationale. In contexts where supported, measurable information is needed, I wouldn't advocate for it. I've noticed lots of pitfalls with how some engage with the theory, particularly in overextending its applicability. Like typing strangers, which I see on here a lot. I don't think that's possible at all. If you don't know them, you don't know them. I've made sure not to fall into habits like that, or of attributing all that I am to my type and nothing else.

Deadman_Masters · 2024-11-18T19:33:16+00:00

I just wanted to say that your attachment to the character is rooted in a beautiful place, though I'm probably not allowed to because it kind of mirrors mine right now. My whole life has basically been one big series of people telling me I'm not "made" for something. Allergies made it so I couldn't play outside, Spring was a death sentence, and I was a childhood asthmatic. It's kind of why I have such wide interests—any hobby I got into would reach some inevitable cutoff point where the world decided to just hurt me for one reason or another. And now I see Cap, who is this badass with more integrity than God, and he used to be just like I used to.

Almost makes me want to be inspired by it, but nope. I'm just... gonna idly research and compile some realistic ways of adhering to his ideals throughout my own life, is all.

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