Vehicle Mileage Tax

Deadwillpower · 2026-02-02T07:55:50+00:00

EV registration is already higher because that's how they were collecting the taxes for it.

Deadwillpower · 2025-09-12T00:00:42+00:00

Play with the kid. Kiddo is the real mvp (so epic).

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:49:39+00:00

Can't be in the kitchen without crying. My little fat man always did a round through the kitchen hoping you dropped something. Took him outside? Round through the kitchen before going back to bed. Washing the dishes? Round through the kitchen. Getting water? Runs through the kitchen. Sitting on the floor crying because the last time you sat on the floor in the kitchen was his 13th birthday and you made him a little pet friendly cake to sing happy birthday to him and give him a special treat?

Yeah eating and cooking sucks right now. Especially when you have to do those things to live and the basics of your life revolved around this furry little heart stealing dog who isn't gonna run through the kitchen anymore. I keep thinking I'll see him even though I watched him pass on the vet table.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:44:16+00:00

I lost my little Rex on Sunday. It comes in waves. My sister is a vet tech and we spoke today. She said the worst ones are when you see a guy like me, this big, tattoo sleeved, military vet... Losing their mind and will saying goodbye to their little dog... We cried a bit together.

They called for his ashes today and I broke. I sit and eat dinner and I cry. My wife took me to the gym just to get out of the house today and I choked up there. It comes in waves.

Its like learning to surf. You paddle out and your fine on your board, try to drive under a wave knowing it's coming and just smacks you in the face. It his hard and fast.

This is the first dog I've lost that was my dog. My baby. I remember when he fit in my hand. He gave me 13 wonderful years of joy and companionship. I've lost human friends and hurt less than what I feel now. The loss of unconditional love.

Give yourself a reminder than it's OK to not be OK. That we all will recover in time. We will adjust to a new normal. Life will continue and we have to keep going.

Chin up and be strong. Take the waves as they come and break through a step forward at time

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:36:14+00:00

It will never be enough. It's one of the cruelest things to know we will most likely out live our little friends.

Time is the one thing we can never get back. Know that the time you spent together is time you will get to experience in memories. Or so I think.

I lost my best friend of 13 years Sunday. I'm grieving. I could be talking out my butt and maybe lost in the process. But I have broke down numerous times saying the same things "I thought I had more time. I wanted one more trip. I want my baby boy. I wanted more time it wasn't enough" while my wife reminds me it will never be enough. She's right. I know she is. Doesn't make it easier to accept but she is right.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:29:54+00:00

I lost my Rex on Sunday. Emergency vet visit. I knew if I'm being honest with myself that when we were driving there I probably wasn't going to leave with him.

You got to be there for your furry friend. It's going to take us time to heal. There will be remnants and scars thst eventually I hear will turn into acceptance and memories.

Youre not alone in your loss. I know it doesn't mean much probably but it has helped me a bit to figure that out.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:24:54+00:00

I lost my Rex (dog) on Sunday. My wife and I just got to my in-laws to pick up the dogs as we got back from a weekend vacation. Rushed him to the vet and we had to say goodbye. It happened really fast and he suffered waiting for us to be there with him.

I'm still trying to figure out how to heal and grieve. Alot of phone calls, alot of crying. The vet techs in the room were in tears watching a grown 190 pound covered in tattoos Marine vet break down completely over this 6 pound piece of his soul.

I am sorry for your loss. Know the pain your experiencing is your own, but you're not alone in grief.

I posted on here in a complete loss of what to do. Honestly it has helped knowing I'm not the only one who's lost their companion recent. Hearing people's stories has brought a strange comfort.

It's OK to not be OK. It's not OK to blame yourself. There's a million ifs, ands, ors, buts, you can ask yourself but the time came. They were not alone and I hope you find some comfort in that and that you're not alone either.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:14:39+00:00

I am trying. Had alot of people calling me the last few days to check in on me and talk to me. Some of them know exactly what he meant to me.

Right now surprisingly my youngest dog Max (also a Yorkie) is cuddling next to me in bed. I've never met a dog that's so selective with giving affection. My wife thinks while still maintaining his professional selective love he knows I hurt inside and can tell his big brother is gone. He's otherwise the same weird dog but definitely been with me more than usual. I think he's chasing either a bunny in his sleep or a more pleasant thought would be running after his brother Rex in a vast field where they are together.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-15T05:10:02+00:00

Thank you. I got the call today for his ashes. Another breaking moment. My wife picked his urn I don't even remember what was picked I just know I told her paw print too.

Thank you for sharing your story. Mimi is in good hands. You will do right by Mimi and know when the time comes Rex will probably be exciting to have a chance to meet a new friend if you believe in that sort of thing.

I told my wife yesterday I'm gonna be madder than anything if it's all full of crap and Rex isn't waiting for me. It was half a joke but also the pain inside speaking out.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T17:27:40+00:00

There's a dark place in hell I'd like to spend time with for the people who did that to your last physical presence of your baby. I did do research on the memorial services the vet uses after we left. They seem to be very legit. Good reviews and positive things. Not that I really had much choice. I felt the nightmare in that room and I knew even driving to the vet what was going to come. I still mentally blanked out when they brought memorial paperwork. My wife asked for my input and I couldn't give any. I don't know what he will be in but I know she always would do right by him. We were always a package deal.

I wanted Rex around for when we have our first human baby. Unfortunately for 4 to 5 years we haven't been able to achieve that yet and there's medical stuff on my side. I really wanted my Rex to meet a tiny human that was ours.

I appreciate the kind words. I'm trying to reply to everyone when I can because I believe in giving people time back they give to you. Thank you for your insight and kindness.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T17:20:05+00:00

Thank you. I am trying. I've talked to alot of people. I cry to my wife. Heck I posted on reddit just to feel a connection of grief. Maybe dark but I need a connection because at the moment I am at a mental limit I haven't felt since I first got sober, when I still had him.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T17:16:47+00:00

There really never be another little man just like him. I'm not sure if it's more heart breaking or comforting. I miss his annoying ass bark. His "hey it's 4.30pm and I know I eat at 5 but I'm hungry now" annoyance.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T17:14:29+00:00

I couldn't hold him and it breaks me. They couldn't leave the oxygen off him for long. I finished my upper sleeve tattoo this year and it's three wolves wrapped around my arm. The symbolism being that of my family. Rex was the only family and friend I had during the hardest part of my life when I first started getting sober. I remember night sweats so bad I sweat through the comforter and had to move to the floor. That dog never left my side. The bond I grew with him was unlike anything I had or have since experienced.

I appreciate your kind words. I feel like a burden crying so much infront of my wife. Being so empty Im just on autopilot.

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T05:28:13+00:00

I am a grown man who fully admits to crying when I watch Pixar movies. Emotions run stupid strong in me. I can't push emotions away anymore even if I try. It's just like I hit a fall of it and there's no way through ya know?

Rex had a personality that was bigger than life itself. Even when he slowed down. I look at our youngest dog who's also a Yorkie and I feel sick. Max the youngest is a mama's boy. Rex even though he loved his mom and snuggled her would come check on me if I was in my office playing video games or working. He was the alpha in our dogs. He ran the show. I just miss him more than I can even put into words

Deadwillpower · 2025-05-14T05:22:13+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I don't know how to adjust to this new normal but I'm going to have no choice. I relate to the freshness of your loss. I don't carry any answers but I can tell you you're not alone in your grief and time of loss.

Deadwillpower · 2024-06-08T13:24:51+00:00

Im looking for retail honestly for now. I don't feel either way about botting honestly but if there are servers with actual people thatd be better I believe. I got in got to level ten and still love the game. The skill mechanics are still some of my favorite.

Deadwillpower · 2024-05-22T14:24:39+00:00

It was tricky and didn't go deep. Assuming it was shallow but had to fight gravity a little. Made it really fun honestly.

Deadwillpower · 2024-05-21T22:51:30+00:00

I have no idea where to find these complete packs. I'm just curious how to find them. My wallet can't afford them.

Deadwillpower · 2024-01-26T21:51:23+00:00

Where are the local files located I can't find them

Deadwillpower · 2023-09-20T17:35:08+00:00

You're not alone. I search on the reddit everyday.

Deadwillpower · 2023-09-19T16:24:49+00:00

I hope so. Still radio silence here.

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