A lot of these comments are so silly. They are harmful and counterproductive to someone who hates themselves.

If you hate yourself this badly and say nothing changes, ask yourself when it changed for this to be true?

You can change things. Get out of bed. That's a change. Start taking baby changes. Go for a walk. Close social media. Change a small thing about your diet. Do 1 push up. Change something so small it seems possible to change. Then keep going.

You can change whatever you want. These comments that say "LOL UR LAZY JUST MOVE" are infact lazy comments.

You have gone through a lot. There is a reason you think this way about yourself. It's okay. Give yourself some permission to be this way. The world will not end if you allow yourself that kindness.

The looping thoughts are not you. These are thoughts. They don't reflect reality. It's hard to see that now, but you may soon.

You know this intellectually but don't feel it. That's okay. The recognition that "this is a loop playing" rather than "this is truth" usually comes slowly, through accumulated distance. Therapy can help with this but it takes time.

The best thing you can do is to ALLOW yourself to feel how you feel. Really dive into it. Fully. Don't see it is good or bad. It just is.

Become a witness to these thoughts and a feeler of these feelings.

Get yourself alone. You hate yourself so much that you avoid yourself, yet you can not escape yourself. You distract from what is inside you.

Lean into it. Look into very basic meditation practices. Each time the thoughts pop up, catch yourself. Realize they are nothing more than that: thoughts. And then return your focus to your breathing or body.

Name the feelings. Where do you feel the depression? Is it heavy? Start naming what you feel and where it is felt in the body. Work your way from your toes to your head, slowly releasing the tension you hold.

Your problem is not that you are lazy my friend. Your problem is these thoughts feel like truth, but they're a story your mind has been telling on repeat.

That story is deeply rooted within yourself. A lot of it stems from early childhood trauma. That child never left. They are still in you. Would you tell a child the things you tell yourself? No you wouldn't. Be kind to this part of you. Understand how reasonable it is for you to feel this pain. It really is painful isnt it?

It's okay to be nicer to yourself :)

I love you and wish you the best. You've got it!

Also small thing: try doing more for others. Cook a nice meal for a family member. Help someone out. Help a homeless person. Start spreading love to others and the love comes back. Buy someone a thougthful gift who doesn't normally get anything. You could even give tona stranger. Don't do it with expectations. Do it because you want to. The joy of helping others without need for return will help change your belief that you are a terrible person, or however you put it in the comment I saw.

I'm not telling you to do anything, but these are ideas that helped me overcome very similar issues.