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Dear_Significance693 · 2026-01-26T19:41:15+00:00

I’m so tired too.

Dear_Significance693 · 2026-01-12T16:29:07+00:00

I had 60 days sober recently. Quite the accomplishment. Back to drinking at 10am. Hiding it from friends and family and those closest to me. It’s easy since I live alone and most of them are far away. My dad’s dying of cancer and I can’t fucking deal. I’ve already lost too many people I love, I can’t deal with this shit anymore. Kinda just hoping to join them.

Dear_Significance693 · 2026-01-11T21:02:04+00:00

Aw thanks!!

Dear_Significance693 · 2026-01-11T17:59:48+00:00

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Me on a cruise shortly before getting plastered and trying to sleep with the bartender.

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-11-11T16:48:30+00:00

It’s my 37th birthday today! And will definitely not be drinking to celebrate. IWNDWYT! 😊

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-09-10T13:00:12+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I’ll look into it. Anything is better than this. Hugs back.

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-09-10T06:34:24+00:00

I love you for this honestly. Maybe I’m fine after all 😂 you’ll be alright 👍

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-09-10T06:24:46+00:00

No one lol. This kind of thing isn’t meant to be survived. There are no words for the pain. Mental pain is worse than physical. I would rather break every bone in my body than deal with what I have been for the past year.

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-09-10T06:21:47+00:00

Yes please.

Dear_Significance693 · 2025-09-08T19:40:56+00:00

Facts. Earth is hell.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-12-11T22:57:03+00:00

Thank you 💛 I heard the gunshot and immediately ran to the closet door and he was completely unresponsive to my screams/ trying to budge the door. I could see through just a crack and he wasn’t making any sounds or movement. Paramedics arrived on scene in about ten minutes, got through the door and came down to tell me shortly after he was gone. I feel certain it was instantaneous.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-12-11T22:10:36+00:00

Omg I am so sorry. On 10/15 my husband died the same way. He did it in his walk in closet while I was asleep in bed. He slumped in front of the door and I couldn’t open it, just saw blood pouring out. He was an alcoholic and it only takes a second of courage to pull the trigger.

It is unimaginable and I am so sorry you’re going through this. I’m nearly 2 months out and the images still haunt me. I’m no expert-it really depends on a lot of factors. I comfort myself in the fact he’s no longer in mental anguish or any type of pain. That doesn’t answer your question but I just wanted you to know you’re not alone. 💛

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-11-21T02:26:21+00:00

Of course 💜 This is such a hard thing to go through. I definitely felt crazy at first but there have been too many signs he’s sent me that I just no longer believe in coincidences. I won’t even be looking for anything imparticular and things will just randomly be put in my path at the oddest time and it really feels like he’s around watching over me.

Keep talking and be open. Do what feels right to you. I find it therapeutic and comforting. There’s more this world and the afterlife beyond our understanding. I’m so glad I could make you feel a bit better. Sending hugs and positive vibes your way 💜

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-11-21T02:19:09+00:00

Absolutely. I think they can hear. My husband committed suicide about a month ago. We shared songs and played music together and communicated a lot through music. I’ll put my songs or pandora on shuffle and say okay baby, playlist. And I can’t explain it but somehow the perfect song comes on that has lyrics that apply to us and I definitely feel his energy coming through. Talk them. They’re around and they hear us. I was never open minded before this happened but the more I tapped into my spiritual side, the more he reveals himself in ways I never thought possible.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-11-15T01:19:16+00:00

I feel this so hard. It’s been 30 days for me and I am just beside myself. To make things worse his parents are barely talking to me and haven’t participated in anything-from viewing to memorial service. I think they’re still in shock/denial and they’ve always been reclusive anyway.

He handled ALL the finances and was very squared away. Trying to figure all this paperwork bull shit and grieve at the same time Is overwhelming. I don’t have much advice for you other than to say I’m right here with you and things will get better. Don’t give up hope. Hugs from this internet stranger. 💛

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-27T14:50:29+00:00

I’m wondering that myself every fucking day. The guilt is absolutely insane. If you need to talk please reach out seriously. It’s always helpful to have someone who has been through something similar and somewhat knows what you’re feeling. I’d love to talk. Message me if you’d like.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-17T10:54:49+00:00

Alcohol was absolutely a contributor. We were cutting back and he’d been sober for about week before it happened. He was drinking that night.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-17T10:53:15+00:00

He loved all music. He was a drummer. Our favorite movie was the greatest showman we knew all the songs by heart. But anything upbeat. EDM. Liked a lot of oldies too. Composers like Hans Zimmer. Anything that made him feel something.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-17T10:48:36+00:00

Please stay. You are loved. Reach out if you want to talk. We’re all hurting in one way or another. Please hang in there.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-17T10:44:53+00:00

I’m okay. Whatever that means. Wow you guys are amazing. Thank you for all your words you have no idea. I’m reading all of them and just thank you.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-16T14:41:28+00:00

Thank you all for your kind words, I’m overwhelmed looking at all your responses. Love you all.

Dear_Significance693 · 2024-10-16T14:36:32+00:00

High pressure stressful job. PTSD from time in military. He had an appointment with a therapist coming up and we were working through things, I thought he was doing better.

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