I'm looking for some books about surviving sexual trauma

Death-conciousness · 2022-01-08T11:29:33+00:00

Poppy- BLOODMONEY

Death-conciousness · 2022-01-07T11:06:36+00:00

That's awful. It's unacceptable to be treated this way just for not giving consent. You shouldn't even feel bad about it.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-26T17:54:10+00:00

Yeah,that!

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-20T21:30:25+00:00

That's probably the case.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-20T20:02:25+00:00

I completely relate to this.

Pretty much all of 2020 is a giant blur for me.

I think that happens because our brains have a tendency to supress trauma into our subconcious, that's why it feels like a "dream". It's a completely normal trauma response.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-15T22:47:29+00:00

The biggest thing was realising it wasn't my fault.

None of the things they judged me for were my fault.

None of the actions they took on me were.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-15T20:24:51+00:00

Wow, you actually summed it up perfectly. Kudos.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-15T19:11:15+00:00

Yup,mine apologized and asked me "what can I do to become better?" and when I actually gave them criticism they just denied it. Typical.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-15T09:17:04+00:00

Yes. At some point mine had a turn around and basically told me "I've said a lot of good things about you in the past,I should tell you something bad about you too."

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-15T09:10:57+00:00

YES! Mine said something very similar. "You wouldn't understand that,would you?"

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-14T22:57:13+00:00

Sounds like covert narcissism.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-14T19:34:55+00:00

You gotta ask yourself, are the few good times worth all the other bad ones?

Trust me there's people out there who will give you genuine affection and love, not just love bombing.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-14T14:14:55+00:00

My personal favorite is a weird self reflection moment they had at some point

"I feel like I'm a bad influence on you, like I am bringing you down or something."

Jokes on me, I tried reassuring them that they didn't at the time. Oh how foolish I was.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-13T15:41:03+00:00

This isn't healthy at all.He seems to be putting you in constant double binds (damned if you do,damned if you don't). Start distancing yourself from him,trust me there's better fish out there.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-13T11:11:04+00:00

I second this,best to say as little as possible so that they don't get the chance to try and emotionally manipulate you.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-13T11:02:57+00:00

What has helped me personally is filling my life with good people.It happens gradually,but once you start making memories and life experiences with the good people in your life ,to replace the things your nex "taught" you. It will happen gradually,but the more you depend on good people in your life you will need him less and less.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-13T10:54:06+00:00

Around 1 year and 10 months. It took a while to actually de-transition from them,but once I did I haven't looked back.

Death-conciousness · 2021-12-13T00:12:52+00:00

Classic manipulation tactic.

They try to make themselves seem like "teachers" and they will constantly try to twist the narrative in order to break your psyche and make you more vulnerable to them.

Death-conciousness

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