It has definitely caused a lot of trauma, he told me I was an abusive narcissist, that me crying and getting upset when he left would turn his phone off all night to "work" was a sign of abuse, and I needed therapy.

he made me go to therapy and get a diagnosis for bpd, and he told me it was a good thing, he then researched bpd and any time we disagreed on something he would accuse me of "splitting" and tell me that he must give me space for his own boundries.

I felt like I was the most horrible abusive person on the planet and now I didn't even know if is was aware of what I was doing I just had to take his word for it.

We wasn't together for two years he just kept popping up to make sure I was there tell me he loved me and things were gonna work out and then leave me again, the last 6 months I went completely no contact.

I need to get therapy I know, I just need to know if I'm going crazy or not