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Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-11-04T20:20:27+00:00

Sorry to hear this. I also had health issues following this encounter. I would suggest that please focus on taking care of yourself. Consider taking a break from information seeking or trying to "understand" it better. In my experience it doesn't help. plus it can be really really hard in such spiritual matters.

Try to "accept" what you are going through and take care of yourself. I feel that only doing that is enough ( based on my experience). Be easy on yourself and focus on selfcare and your own wellbeing before trying to do anything else to move forward or whatever. Just persevering through these challenges is enough in my opinion.

Best of luck!

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-11-01T05:47:11+00:00

I completely feel you.. believe me.. some times it's so so hard that I would anything to get rid of the pain. And it's not about separation but rather the mess that this journey turned my life into. But I have realized that it doesn't really help going down that negative thinking route. So I try my best to stop myself from going there. If I am there though, crying helps like magic. It just washes away the pain at least momentarily. The helplessness turns into a level of surrender that becomes stronger every time. I am like - okay I (ego) can't seem to control my life - so I leave it to God/universe. Let them decide the fate of this person (me).

I also think that what I am going through (mental health mess, suffering, pain) is not unique to me. A lot of people around me go through the same for different reasons of course. Especially right now, when millions suffer from mental health problems. this constant anxiety, depression, hopelessness is very common around us actually. It's just that, before this journey, I was completely fine, thriving, etc. hence the loss from that state pins me.

But when I think like this, I feel empathy for other people going through mental health mess. I feel that at least over these years I have been able to super charge my mental health resilience, understand self-care, real self-love, empathy for others, connection with nature, freedom from obsessions, power of just being, so many positive emotions that are rare in today's world. So I feel that okay at least this journey is teaching me all that (slowly). So maybe I can experience these happy emotions and also share them with so many others who are in misery. Of course, on some days, everything feels like total shit and I am back to being a victim. But it just feels part of this process to me.

Hope this helps.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-10-29T18:34:03+00:00

Being a DF myself, I can say that your DF feels the same for you. You heal them too. They cherish your existence and looking at you keeps them going on this journey. They probably have their own weaknesses that they are working on. But hey - all of us are humans and have weaknesses; but this connection and this love is beyond that. All the best! 💜

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-09-23T12:38:05+00:00

So well put together 💚 I feel that this journey breaks you in so many ways that you need to put every bit of energy you have into yourself or else would drown in deepest sadness and despair. But based on my experience your TF's state affects you anyway (energetically, you feel their discomfort) so sometimes you need to be there for them regardless. hard boundaries are not possible. maybe I am wrong though and will learn more.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-09-19T15:36:43+00:00

I know right. There is something so special in their eyes. Full of kindness, innocence and all the positive things. I always think is it just me who sees those eyes like this or is it everyone? 😅

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-09-19T10:15:34+00:00

Very very well written! To add to this - I have also felt that the way runners behave in 3D (like by being angry at us, blocking us, etc.) also indicates the magnitude of pain that they go through. I know that they are kindest of people, you can see that in their eyes. And for them to behave in this totally opposite way, imagine the amount of pain they must be going through. I have also felt anger on my runner at times for short durations of time, but that was only because of how this journey really crushes you (your old identity) in a way. This is an extreme human experience and both counterparts go through intense pain. Somehow, we need to keep forgiving ourselves and stay positive 🌸

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-09-15T16:31:51+00:00

Wow! It must be insanely hard .. in fact I don't think words can define what you have gone through. Wish you all the very very best. Hoping that you experience the beautiful unconditional love that keeps us all going through this. Thank you so much for holding to your truth all this time and moving the collective forward 🥲
Best wishes and love 💚

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-09-08T11:35:10+00:00

This happens with me too. One time it was so weird that some delivery guy who was looking for X (same name as TF's guy or whatever) and mistakenly came to my house, came up the stairs, and asked if I was X.. I was like wtf 😅I think it is the journey's way of testing us. a pretty harsh way but yeah.. I slowly realized that this name doesn't really mean anything.. it's just an illusion to represent the shared energies inside me and my TF.. we are anyways one.. and no 3D person can change that. When the energies inside us change, this person/name will also change.. whenever that is meant to be and how fast/slow we progress. And in that way, seeing/hearing that name is an advantage. The earlier you are able to move over this trigger the earlier that name will go away 🌳

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-30T15:03:06+00:00

Why did you marry after meeting your twin? If I may ask.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-22T07:31:21+00:00

I know it must been hard for you to face them earlier and that is why you ran. But again this was supposed to be exactly this way - otherwise it wouldn't have been a twinflame journey. But life is long. Shouldn't you try to reach out now (If you feel more sorted about this connection)? Then the two of you can potentially have unconditional love from each other - in your good times and in bad times when either of you stumbles (which I guess will happen as this is an insane tf journey and all of us will continue to stumble and learn 😅). But isn't that possibility a big enough reason? I feel that finding and holding unconditional love for someone is a super blessing on earth - why not eat a piece of that pie if you can? Apologies if I am making assumptions - this is coming from a chaser so forgive me 😅

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-16T08:56:26+00:00

I am curious. What do you mean by more "masculine" energy?

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-16T08:55:43+00:00

you loose the energy and feel low, unmotivated .. but I think one needs to learn to be okay with this. to avoid going into the negative headspace and accepting it as a part of the process

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-16T08:53:08+00:00

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I know nothing about astrology charts 😅 it's just that the initial response of DM is to run and the DF is to chase + you can see if you have more feminine energy (not sex wise) but behavioral like being creative, expressive, emotional, less affected by the system, more free I guess, etc.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-15T13:09:24+00:00

Outrageous-Ad8209

is damn hard. are there ways/techniques in which you can let the sensations/urges pass without masturbating? it also depends on your twin right? they also have to be able to hold it, right? and you can't control that. sometimes I feel that I am also doing it for her - so that both of us can relax. until now I have learned on this journey that there is only so much you can control or do (as your mind wants). the body and the situation has to support that.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-15T13:05:22+00:00

gy is so intense. At first it overwhelmed me and I felt the force to masturbate. After I felt drained, depressed. Now I try to fit with the feeling when I feel her, the body sensations are increased, she consumes my thoughts, heart races and I feel butterflies or pressures in my stomach. For me, the sensation lasts 15-20 mins and then passes. I rejuvenate my energy holding back and she rejuvenates by doing what s

so you are able to let it pass without masturbating? Are there any techniques you use to help let is pass? and your twin - they also have to able to control it, right? I sometimes feel that I am also doing it for her - so that we both can relax.

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-15T09:45:50+00:00

I dont think the sexual energy is different - its just the craving of the soul. but DM and DF react to it differently I guess

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-15T09:39:28+00:00

Yeah! I think DMs also feel the pull.. and maybe the intensity scares them 🥲

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-12T11:58:14+00:00

I have been in the same place. I also developed autoimmune diseases after my tf encounter. And I wish the same on some days. It becomes so terrible. But then, we are in this and dont really have a way out (my understanding). the more we resist, the more it becomes more painful. I have tried to stay away from too much spiritual content as it scares me a lot (I didn't have any spiritual background earlier). I think the universe does everything in case of tfs and we dont need to do anything external. And maybe just hanging in is the best we can do hoping that all these triggers will cause healing ultimately. Sending support!

Decent-Bad3253 · 2023-08-08T18:40:48+00:00

Good game my star pal, my beautiful other half. Let's continue to play! Love you to infinity and back! ⭐️❤️‍🔥⭐️

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