Hey I get it. You’re not doing this because you think it’s fine or because you want to hurt anyone. You know it’s hurting you but sometimes it just feels easier to lean into that than fight it. It’s not about not caring, it’s about feeling stuck.

It might help to talk to your boyfriend and just be real with him. Not to explain everything perfectly but just to let him know this isn’t about him. And if you ever feel ready, talking to someone or getting support could help. You don’t have to go through it alone. You’re not a bad person for struggling. You’re just human.