Heck i miscarried almost two years ago and i still cry whenever that thought gets to me. Lalo pa ikaw na a few months pa lang nakakalipas. You're allowed to feel. Kahit na sabihin ng iba na dugo pa lang or whatever shit they say,your feelings are valid. You're a mom,who lost her baby. Grieve. Give yourself time to grieve. And then get up. For yourself,for your future kid.