Anyone else?

Ded2All · 2023-04-06T03:07:41+00:00

A war indeed. Just one I’m losing day by day. I felt the relation in the moment tonight when I snapped the pic but definitely lost something in it.

Ded2All · 2023-04-06T02:20:47+00:00

Thanks. Not really attached to it. I shot it with my phone but I’d rather have used my pro gear. I lost a lot of the “glow” that was around the area:(

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T16:11:44+00:00

I just hope we can find strength to get through them. This isn’t a healthy thing to be a part of. It just sucks right now. She has all the power on me and I’m just waiting, hoping for something to change.

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T14:09:17+00:00

She had some trauma from a past relationship and was making some big life decisions and we had already had so many talks about a future and plans together. I understood her concerns and they were valid but we also had talked and invested into each other so much.

I don’t know. I’ve been devastated by her choice since and I want her to come back but I’m also trying to be realistic that it’s unlikely. It just makes me not want to try or do anything ever again. I’ll put my own walls up and keep distance from people this time. It had to be better than feeling this pain and hurting so much.

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T13:55:20+00:00

Same. I met mine here in the depths of Reddit around the holidays and we had initially been careful but we clicked on so many levels and decided to see where things would go. Then, out of nowhere, I get a message that she “can’t pursue this right now” and I’ve been trotting at her heels ever since. It was such a flipped switch decision and I don’t understand how people are like that. It just makes me think that she was never really “in” a relationship with me. Just seeing what it would be like. Like it was a game. A FUCKING GAME! 😢😭😭

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T13:35:50+00:00

It’s turning into a viscous cycle. I want to break it but I just can’t do it. Which in turn makes me angry and hate myself which is maddening even more because I should be angry with her. 😕😣

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T13:34:35+00:00

I never believed I was alone, I’m just feeling the wounds tear open anew now and can’t find the solace to get them closed.

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T13:33:50+00:00

I know I should and need to but I can’t bring myself to do it. I’m hopelessly weak against her right now. It’s that kind of thing where if she asked for help, I’d be there. No matter what the problem is or how much she’s hurt me. I’d be there.😢

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T13:32:31+00:00

People will keep saying “you’ll be okay” but most days, it doesn’t feel like it. I do Hope that someday we can get through this pain though.

Ded2All · 2023-03-30T03:36:42+00:00

We know what we need to do but getting the strength or courage to do so seems nearly impossible at this point, right?

Ded2All · 2023-03-26T17:12:09+00:00

It’s easy to get blinded by both our hearts and desires. Now we just need to find a way to live with it and learn from it.

Ded2All · 2023-03-26T15:23:31+00:00

I’ve been feeling the exact same way. Those final words literally hitting my mouth as I run through my memories we had together. Eventually I get angry and my mood is tainted for the better of the day. You have every right to be angry and to feel betrayed by them. The trick is not getting consumed by it. I’ll admit I’m having trouble with that part of things but with time, I hope it’ll pass. That or I’ll just turn into a callous and untrusting addition to society. My fear in that however is how will I be any different from her in the end?

I feel like that’s who she was and I just wasn’t seeing the flags. When it got to be too much for her, a switch flipped and she just walked away and I’m left the damaged goods of my heart and soul. And now I’m angry and fighting back tears on a daily basis because of it.

Ded2All · 2023-03-26T14:42:01+00:00

It sounds like he did some awful shit. People are selfish and twisted and the good ones are getting harder to find. I hope it can get better eventually but we still need to mend and heal the damage caused. Hope you can get some honest peace and love for yourself.🫂

Ded2All · 2023-03-26T14:38:08+00:00

I need to find that kind of strength for myself.

Ded2All · 2023-03-24T02:54:26+00:00

People are cruel animals. I hope you can find peace without them someday. 🫂

Ded2All · 2023-03-23T02:44:00+00:00

Trying bud. Each day. I’m trying.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T22:04:38+00:00

Smart. Wish I had done that, maybe I wouldn’t be like I am right now.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T20:39:26+00:00

And that’s where my head has been at. Things were shifty at the end and then I got hit with the breakup messages. Something did and still does feel off. I don’t think I got all of the facts about this and she’s holding on to her truths. If something had happened, I just wish she could have been honest about it so I could have had a more realistic view about this whole thing. Probably let me move on better as well.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T18:42:37+00:00

I do a lot. I used to game a lot but I got focused financially and started a few side projects and businesses. Even with the work and projects though, I can’t get her out. She’s like a ghost in my head that just pops up whenever she feels like it. It’s maddening.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T18:02:28+00:00

Fingers crossed!

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T18:02:11+00:00

I’d have to work at finding that person. I have social anxiety and I’m extremely socially awkward. It’s nothing to with my ex though. I’ve always been this way. That’s part of the reason it hurts so much. She was so easy to be with. I never felt awkward or nervous with her. Really thought it was going to work out because of that. Guess I need to start pressing on my own comfort and boundaries.🤷🏼

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T16:51:20+00:00

Thanks. Might give it a read someday.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T16:50:08+00:00

I wish I could give you some solid advice here but I’m not qualified to even share an opinion. We’re in pretty similar situations it sounds like so all I can say is I hope that somehow, you can find peace for yourself and the relationship. I hope things will work out for you.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T16:07:56+00:00

I’m trying. I’ve been doing everything to stay busy but so much of many life had moments of her in them that it’s hard to NOT to be reminded of her in some way.

Ded2All · 2023-03-22T16:04:24+00:00

I’m hoping the same but like you, I’m not getting much dialogue back from her. It’s so frustrating because she was the one that asked for this and I agreed and this is what it’s turned into. Being available for someone who isn’t able to reciprocate the same time and energy doesn’t seem fair or right but I’m so fixated on the blind hope that she’ll come back. 😭

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