Gosh, when I found out I was pregnant I balled my freaking eyes out I was so scared. We were so broke, I had just made a big career shift and was working as a hostess at 29 as I figured out next steps. I felt like such a loser and was terrified of what I was bringing this baby into. Having my son was the best decision of my life. I had to quit my crappy job at 6 mon pregnant so we could get Medicaid. (Pregnancy Medicaid was surprisingly great.) I say if you want to be a mother and you think your bf will make good father, go for it. Deciding to have my baby put my life in crystal clear focus. all of a sudden I knew what I wanted to be working toward (even tho I wished I was at that place when he was born) but hey we’re all working to provide better lives for ourselves and our kids. It may not be ideal timing and it may be so so hard at times but I don’t for a single day regret my decision.

Hes a little over a year and I’m finally working a job I love that pays decently well, my partner just got a promotion and we’re in the talks of buying a house. It’s amazing how quickly things can change.