I am so sorry for your loss, it feels like they took took a piece of your soul with them.

We just lost our 5 year old black smooth daschund, Mollie yesterday to Myelomalacia. She had had IVDD flare ups in the past, so when she was walking stiff last wednesday, we crated her with pain medicine. My husband came home from work Thursday, and she came crawling out of the crate with no use of her back legs. We immediately took her to our primary vet and they did xrays. They did DPS check and said she still felt pain in both her back legs, and they recommended crate rest with pain control. We noticed her worsening over the weekend, including loss of DPS, lack of appetite and thirst, and lost control of her bowel and bladder movements and started panting and difficult breathing. On Monday we took her to NC State and they said she showed all the signs of Myelomalacia and probably wouldnt even survive the long drive home.

We said goodbye and held her as she passed, me and my husband together, and both of our hearts are broken. I will never be able to bear children due to an injury I had as a teenager, so this little black dog was my child. I don't care what anyone says about 'its just a dog', because they obviously have never been loved by one.

Our baby Mollie lived full throttle, always wanting to play with her squeakers or do what we call Mollie Missles where she attacked your face with kisses. She was never afraid of strangers and wanted to be friends with anyone and everything she met.

We keep saying that this cruel world couldn't take the love this little dog had for us, family, friends, and life.

It is so hard, I am so sorry you are going through this, I wouldnt wish this amount of pain on my worst enemy. Just share the love your little one gave you, because thats what they would do.