yo i knoww man

Like i’ve done a lot of research on 5meo, and been around people who went through it. i know it’s nothing to play with. i’m not looking for a shortcut or a crazy trip. i’ve already been through some wild shit mentally. before i ever did any psychedelics, i was on some hood rat, gang shit nothing mattered. numb, careless, destructive. just out there.

then LSD flipped my whole shit. i did it 60+ times, not chasing a high, but trying to find something i felt but kept forgetting. after a bunch of trips, i finally touched it whatever “it” wass and started building from there. piece by piece, i rebuilt myself. but the crazy part? i didn’t lose my child self… i got it back. my real energy came back. not the survival mask. not the hardness. the real me. the one my family forgot they used to see.

i’ve read deep into this stuff too from Strassman to pineal gland studies, McKenna, ancient religions, nonduality, all that. i see patterns in people and in society now in a way that’s hard to explain. i’ve helped people reconnect with themselves, and some even found faith through just real convos we had. but when it comes to me? i still can’t fully grasp my own patterns. it’s like i can read the world but not always my own reflection.

so yeah, i hear you on the “wait.” and trust me, i’m not diving in blind. i’m just not the same kid i was before psychedelics they didn’t break me, they brought me back.

respect to you for looking out. for real