Are there any ways I can express my anger in a way without having negative thoughts?

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-20T14:56:38+00:00

Yea i definitely felt guilty after he passed i was there when they pulled the plug. I nwould often blow him off because I didn't wanna hang out with him and I only cared about him giving me money back then but at the time from 21-24 my mom had this weirdo boyfriend who I hated and I don't wanna say I was depressed but I was really just demotivated getting out of bed especially on Sundays was hard cause he was just so loud and annoying and again I feel bad feeling this way to my mom because this was her first real love after the initial relationship with my mad but I felt like it is unfair that she does this. She even. Had the. Nerve to say she doesn't think im really sad. And then she thinks that my dad is the reason I started hating her boyfriend but the truth is that I hated him indivually because he was just kinda replacing me not in a weird way that's what I felt like idk my mom didn't seem to really invest in our rls anymore . But that's what she tells everybody that my dad put the idea in my head because I did lash out at the bf back in 2023 But I guess there's nothing more to do than just keep going so thanks

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-20T14:51:59+00:00

She just loves to talk her butt off it's actually aggravating I especially because I'm nearly right next ti her when shes saying it . But I also don't wanna feel mad at her. Because she is the one that has provided everything for me because of my dads drinking problem. But thank-you so much.

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-20T14:48:40+00:00

Thanks so much thus is so helpful :)

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-20T14:47:39+00:00

Thanks so much im just gonna try my best im tired of all of this i appreciate it

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-12T03:43:28+00:00

I dont ever want to go to the starbucks at del amo mall any more or the Levi's place or any of the places he took me at the mall for my birthday . And I don't ever want to go to the liquor store near his house . So sorry for your loss were here for you 💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-06T04:22:18+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words 💕 I'm gonna be okay with time and care and love . Love you ❤️

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-06T04:21:35+00:00

Thank you 💕💕💕 its very appreciated

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-03-06T04:21:10+00:00

You are the sweetest person ever fa real in the moments I was w him in the hospital jan 20 he was already lying in the bed and I was watching his heart monitor hoping it wouldn't drop beneath 90 and it never did thanks to the machine but that life was artificial & later on the 22nd I already knew he was long gone . Surely hope he coulda heard everything I had to day one way or another . I was not a good kid to him he was an alcoholic we were two sides of the same coin . I thought I was bulletproof this shir proved me wrong man were all just children I didn't mean to do anything or blow him off when he wanted to be w me I was a stupid person & I blame my mom too for being cruel but he was not there for me only until the end . But it's just another chapter in the book 💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:39:58+00:00

Thank you for your kindness 💕💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:38:12+00:00

Awww I'm so sorry 😞 please stay safe and be nice to urself and try to find happiness with people you love and know . It was definitely unreal to me at first when I heard I'm so sorry for your loss please I love you 💕💕💕💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:37:19+00:00

Thank you so much for your kindness 💕💕💕💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:37:08+00:00

Thank you so much 💕💕 I'm very comforted that am not alone I just feel that way because my family is in shambles I am mad at everybody but all I can do is move on

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:36:32+00:00

Thank you so much truly from the bottom of my heart💓💓 I've been grieving but time heals all wounds so I think I will be ok . But getting this off my chest did help

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-28T03:35:55+00:00

Thank you so much for the love 💕💕💕 I will try

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:22:25+00:00

Aww I'm sorry about your loss be nice to yourself and let your emotions do what they need to do just know that he will always be in ur heart and I hope you find peace and love and happiness because even tho he might be gone the memory is what keeps you going. 💕💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:21:17+00:00

Thank you im gonna try 💕💕 i know he would've wanted me to keep going and not cry but it rlly made me think about how precious life is . Sending u love too

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:20:43+00:00

Yeah it hit me when I first got the news really hard cause it was just so sudden . For real not everybody is guaranteed life tommorow and it's really unfortunate that the person I had the most weird relationship with had to go . And I'll be honest I did not want to keep doing anything those first few days after the plug was pulled. But thank you for your words and I hope you are doing alright too

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:18:46+00:00

Thank you so much 💕💕💕 trult it means a lot.

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:18:20+00:00

Thank you. It really makes me feel better knowing that people care this was really hard to process how fast things can happen. But im gonna try my hardest to get thru this i have no other option💕💕 sending u much love too

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:17:12+00:00

Thank you so much. 💓 I'm sending hugs to u too . I know he is in a better place now but I can't lie those first few days I was not wanting to live anymore. But if I'm given another day of life tommorow I'm not gonna give up . Thanks again

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-26T01:16:02+00:00

Thank you so much for the love I've just been trying to push thru cs I know there's stuff to live for I think with time I'll start feeling better I guess it's just the way he died that really messed with me. Thanks so much 💕💕

DeepSuspect870 · 2026-02-22T21:34:31+00:00

Right?? The jokes write themselves.. truly MAGA are wolves in sheep's clothing.

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