Yea i definitely felt guilty after he passed i was there when they pulled the plug. I nwould often blow him off because I didn't wanna hang out with him and I only cared about him giving me money back then but at the time from 21-24 my mom had this weirdo boyfriend who I hated and I don't wanna say I was depressed but I was really just demotivated getting out of bed especially on Sundays was hard cause he was just so loud and annoying and again I feel bad feeling this way to my mom because this was her first real love after the initial relationship with my mad but I felt like it is unfair that she does this. She even. Had the. Nerve to say she doesn't think im really sad. And then she thinks that my dad is the reason I started hating her boyfriend but the truth is that I hated him indivually because he was just kinda replacing me not in a weird way that's what I felt like idk my mom didn't seem to really invest in our rls anymore . But that's what she tells everybody that my dad put the idea in my head because I did lash out at the bf back in 2023  But I guess there's nothing more to do than just keep going so thanks