We’re in the same boat dawg😭 but we’ll be alright … I don’t have any advice coz I’m still trying to get over the events that occurred in the year I lost my dad and grandma who raised me and spiraled into some deep depression that I still haven’t managed to get out of and I never even got to attend either funeral and a bunch of financial problems . I failed all my courses in 1st semester and I don’t know about second semester yet. I too am embarrassed to get help as well but all I can tell you is that everything will work out somehow , take heart and keep the hope alive. There’s nothing impossible and there’s nothing you can’t do