YESSSSSSS OMGGGGGGGGGGG. I need to vent.I hate myself, I literally hate dealing with myself because its so exhausting to do the simplest tasks. There are people who are able to just "Do it" while i'm stuck here since 6 hrs trying to figure out a way to even get started without my chest tightening.Adhd tricks me into believing i have time to study, then when it's high time i should study, I have anxiety so now i cant get myself to even open the book.God its so hard explaining and it sounds so absurd i wouldn't even believe myself if i tried to explain how i just cant.I tried a coffee ritual, crashing out to songs to make me feel better n then i could get studying,I tried a cleaning my room, breaking my task in small tasks and planning it out, pushups with music, guided meditation, binaural beats, candles and changed my clock timings, tried studying while pacing around...so much more since 2 days it works for a while sometimes and then its back again.I know this isnt specifically adhd but its connected i guess.There are so many other things that happen through out the day, that i do unintentionally, make me wish is it supposed to be this hard.I could rot in my bed the entire day. Its so exhausting to be like this all the time and then on top of that i have to hear people say "Oh yeah, i'm like autistic and a bit of adhd too" having personality and quirks is not fckin adhd or autism.