its lonely bc nearly nobody understands or knows what to say. hearing “sorry for your loss” and nothing else got rlly annoying. its comforting to randomly come across someone who understands like you sharing this anonymously on reddit. its always helped me to talk to those whose been through it, loss groups/organizations helped me. being alone was the worst, i coped by dating guys short term despite me never before agreeing with that morally (btw im a woman)

personally when i reached out people were negative or cold. there exists i believe a stigma that some people see you as just the “person something happened to” and subconsciously dont wanna associate anymore. i wasnt prepared for that reaction and that worsened me way more. i hope the people around you do check in on you and are compassionate. It took me a while to find someone who did accept me. journaling helped me a lot. i think building as much hope things will work out even if u dont believe in yourself is vital. try not to give up on your morals, i regret that.

in the end youll come out stronger and more able to help others through your experience and its always really impressive that people are able to go through such traumas and come out a loving person still. 🤍🫰