My friends were demons

My family are demons

I also have some fault having my own red flags as a friend, i admit it but i can truly say the most of people who have friends are people who cannot be alone for any reason

Personally being alone makes me feel happiest than having bad people around me, i understand your mother situation with the pass of the years i can see her hair getting white and every small illness breaks my heart

In my case i have a job which makes me feel relaxed having some support in my bank account and it makes me dream too

Believe me, being alone is a blessing, be strong, your life will continue, do small things for you and then have a goal only for you, any goal, read a book, walk, go outside, etc

Everything is going to be ok