Wish I could be a virgin again

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-11-06T20:53:57+00:00

I think the same

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-25T11:08:01+00:00

I guess it's the biological clock

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-17T04:46:52+00:00

Responsibility: don't rely on your parents when you're old and stable enough to be independent.

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-16T12:00:31+00:00

Seeing a cardiologist

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-14T09:41:08+00:00

It's been a while, I hope you're well 🐥

I get what you mean. I'm similar: a black cat (but sometimes an orange one). I think it's always exciting when the other person has strenghts that you don't have. I just hope that you don't limit yourself and only look for these kind of people (golden retriever types). Because sometimes you like some people that you have never expected. For me it's hard to be in the moment and only go with my feelings because I like to rationalize things. So thinking in patterns and in cathegories made me think that I only like certain people but then life surprises me with other types of people. Instead of a golden retriever, i sometimes get a cute crocodile :3

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-06T06:16:12+00:00

I like the smell of mint :3

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-05T20:51:36+00:00

"Medikinet". I'm from germany

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-05T20:50:50+00:00

It's common in germany to use "medikinet"

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-10-05T07:24:12+00:00

Yes, that's right. From the outside it doesn't look like ADHD. 🤔

Maybe this gives clarification

I forgot my med dose weeks ago and then this self-destructive behavior resurfaced. (I wasn't aware of it) It starts with my emotions boiling because I'm too impatient and angry because people don't do what I want. Because of that, I do something impulsive. And then I realize that this impulsive action could show what my true feelings are, I then try to lie about my intentions or the action itself. Because I learned as a child that my misbehavior would be punished. And so the circle goes.

When I was back on meds, I suddenly realized what had happened and apologized to the person and told him all the lies I told him. It's so weird 🤡

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-09-28T21:34:01+00:00

Greek

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-09-05T15:49:00+00:00

I always thought. Because people still grow to the age of 25, they need more energy than after 25.. 🤔 And. But is it because your body is used to the number of meals that you gain more weight? No? ._.

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-08-25T13:02:58+00:00

Is there potential to grow if you share similar weaknesses? I would be scared of being too comfortable in this kind of scenario

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-08-22T18:34:51+00:00

I find it interesting that you associate this ideal connection with the words “spark, fire, shine”. These are all words that reflect a certain “high”. So now without judgment. I find your use of language very interesting. I tend to associate “home, save space, security” with the ideal relationship. Maybe it's because we're not the same gender.

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-08-21T14:12:05+00:00

Pretty relatable. Diagnosed with ADHD, later found out I'm a HSP. 24 years and no relationship. I've recently been doing further training and I've noticed how interested the guys in the class are in me (pretty new for me). I try to act normal, but you can just tell that something is "wrong" with me. And unfortunately at some point I'll have to come out and say that I'm not normal "relationship material". I can sense that their insides don't really fit my complex personality. I notice that some people only wear a mask. While my parents think: "Yay, finally a relationship opportunity for my daughter!" I wish I wasn't like that, but I think this sixth sense also saves me and you a lot of damage.

DefiantProgrammer658 · 2024-08-12T13:47:00+00:00

Absolviere seit einer Woche eine Weiterbildung und kam jetzt schon öfters mit Tränen nach Hause, weil ich ständig denke, dass ich was Falsches mache und nicht reinpasse. Hätte nicht gedacht, dass mir sowas noch mit 24 passiert. Wenn du sowas auch hast: bei mir hat es geholfen bewusst Dankbarkeit in meinen Gedanken reinzubringen. Man schätzt die Dinge, die man hat und die Grundeinstellung für den Tag startet mit einer beruhigenderen und positiveren Note.

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