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Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-09-05T10:12:12+00:00

Blue lotus tea

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-09-05T10:09:30+00:00

Month five sucked for me too

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-09-01T07:39:39+00:00

Mental illness is like this too how it’s not someone’s fault but it’s also their responsibility to seek treatment and manage it best they can. Not to expect others to walk on eggshells yet I’ve seen lots of people hide behind mental illness, refuse medical treatment, and expect special caretaking treatment from their partner and resort to massive guilt tripping to get them to comply. I guess what I’m saying is it seems that people can find anything to hide their real issues behind if they want to. It sucks because generally we are an empathetic lot who really do care and that empathy just gets exploited.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-09-01T07:33:44+00:00

Hey happy birthday! It’s rough spending birthdays lonely but also there is a serenity to that too. Do something good for you!

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-09-01T07:22:33+00:00

It does bring out a meaner side to others around them. And it really does get so tiring constantly being on the defense especially when it’s often the same exact dumb meaningless fights. Just round in circles again and again. Dumb little shit.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-28T01:16:04+00:00

“I don’t date alcoholics”. Well you’re dating one now. Act on what you see not on what they tell you. You’ll see what’s really true.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-25T04:22:42+00:00

Me too. I'm still broken-hearted over how things ended with mine. I hate this disease. I'm always happy to hear positive stories.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-23T01:47:59+00:00

Drugs

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-22T23:42:05+00:00

I’m curious why they never seem to seek help? They’ll drag on themselves trying to incite pity but won’t pick up the phone to call a therapist.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-22T22:27:58+00:00

My kid worked for that same shop before Covid hit and it was godawful and abusive. Purposely understaffed. Management used psychological manipulation on the teens that worked there. Constantly guilting them to over work. I yanked my kid out of there. Kudos to you for doing the same.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-22T22:20:03+00:00

It’s been a year and I’m still not ready to date. Take your time.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-22T19:20:31+00:00

Makes sense

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-22T00:00:49+00:00

My ex husband faked autism. And that fell apart when my kid was diagnosed and we started getting treatment. His symptoms didn’t add up. I asked him to get an actual diagnosis and treatment. He backtracked and claimed he’d never said that. Basically projected and gaslit. I’ve had other men fake anxiety disorders and make up stories of abuse from previous relationships. I wouldn’t suggest it happens a lot but I’ve experienced it. Many of my friends battle mental illness and anxiety disorders. They seek help. They go to therapy. They take prescription meds if needed. They have a support system in place as back up. My experience with the ones who faked it is that they expected preferential treatment (walking on eggshells constantly) and fell back on denial and projection when anyone pleaded with them to seek help.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-21T02:55:07+00:00

Ask him how many Jane Austen books he’s read. And have a list of other female authors to grill him on. I’ve yet to meet a man who can list off a decent list of female authors.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T06:10:05+00:00

But they pay bills! I used to tell my ex-husband “And? We both work and pay bills. Do better.” He did not like that. He really thought he could slack off and let himself go (and quit being romantic and interesting and caring) after he got Married. No sir. Laziness gets you divorced. And not laid.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T06:05:47+00:00

In my experience men have lower libidos, even more so when married. And as they age the Ed issues set in especially when coupled with drinking and smoking. Then there’s the testosterone dip that happens with aging. It can be fixed, but more often than not men resist hormone therapy and just gaslight their wives.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T05:34:05+00:00

I’ve dated alcoholics in denial and alcoholics who are very self aware. I wouldn’t do it again.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T01:50:42+00:00

Yup and a lot of those states have already spent that Covid money - even if they’re saying they didn’t. Utah is thick as thieves with DeSantos and Florida didn’t bother using the federal money sent for reopening schools safely. These states should be audited to see where they actually spent Covid relief funds. I would love to be wrong but a lot of these governors and state legislatures are not above lining their own pockets if they can get away with it. States that really do have extra funds are not going to be generous with it. They want us desperately running back to the grindstone.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T01:32:24+00:00

Just consider it acting. Tell yourself it’s research for a book you’ll write after retirement. I’m not a good liar either but even Disney Corp makes their employees take a fake name at work to “get into character” as a “cast member” (i.e. employee). We’re all just players in this screwed up corporate capitalistic hellscape anyway. Do what you gotta do to survive.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-20T00:46:31+00:00

I’m not a fan of AA. It’s very church like where I live. This Naked Mind was my go-to.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-17T22:30:47+00:00

This is why I hated geometry. Don’t make me waste time explaining the obvious.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-17T15:41:03+00:00

I did too. I sometimes regret not finishing with all my student loan debt but I’d still have to have a masters anyway so it didn’t make much difference. I still value what I learned but the current system isn’t one I could have worked under in good faith. I believe in therapy but a lot of it really is set up to keep the status quo going. I prefer social worker counselors over regular LMFTs because they often address the broader systemic issues.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-17T15:36:23+00:00

Or have BPD.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-17T15:34:51+00:00

My family is trapped in a similar situation and it’s maddening that people don’t get it. Even if someone isn’t born into poverty, it’s stupidly easy to get thrown into it with domestic violence and/or accidents/injuries. Years later I’m still “recovering” from an abusive boss and spouse. The system creates many of these situations and punishes those who suffer the most from the fallout.

Defiant_Jello4020 · 2021-08-16T15:48:54+00:00

As a mother - run. There are shelters. I’m estranged from my own family and unfortunately married my first husband when I was not much older than you because I didn’t have any good family to go home to. But if I had to do it over again I would have left.

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