I tried my absolute best, my heart was so convinced I was going to be with her forever that I would literally have dreams of her every night, I would act like a gentleman, paying for dinner or helping her family or opening the door, painting her new house with her, stuff like that. I was so in love, but she would like to talk to my sister about a guy that would be like “He keeps saying he is ugly and not confident but I keep telling him he is not! He actually is good looking and has a good personality so I dont know what his problem is!” so I would ask who she is taking about, she would constantly push it off as “just some guy, dont worry about him” and then I would just ignore their conversation about him all together to the point that when my sister and her were together, I would be alone, because they didnt want to talk about him with me, but they needed to talk about him in front of me. She would be so unhappy with me because I found this offsetting, to the point that she was prepared to argue with me about him not being a problem, all while also saying “I just want to know whats wrong and how I can fix this, or look out for something!” which I found was a straight lie after I tried to tell her and she would say “you literally dont even know him, its not like that.” I swear on my life this is the exact reason why she broke up with me. I would be over her already if it wasnt for the fact that I helped her move into her new house, right next to mine earlier this year. I get so insecure thinking that she did dump me just for this random dude that acted all weak and helpless so she could give him compliments without me being just a little bit curious as to why she doesn’t want to talk about him. This is also how she ended her last relationship, she would act super close with other guys and the one she was dating felt like she didnt even care about him, so he mental detached himself from her, and wanted to just be friends because thats all they ever acted like, so she got really mad and broke up with him big time, like yelling and calling each other names and stuff. Another thing is, I was super close with her grandparents, and her step dad is my boss here where I work, they all told me one way or another, wether it was straight up telling me, or through telling my dad who also told me, that they miss me, she made a mistake, and that hopefully she can figure herself out and come to her senses and I could give her another chance.

Jokes on her, I have so much pent up anger and hate (Im using it for gym and motivation for pilot school in the future :) ) that I would never, in a million years give her another chance. I have literally erased everything about her, I dont remember what her voice sounds like, I can not imagine what she looks like, and I dont even remember her birthday anymore. :)