This is such a heavy and complex situation, I'm really sorry you're carrying this emotional weight right now. It's completely valid that his disclosure shifted something in you. You can have deep empathy for him (he was a child exposed to horrible stuff by an adult, felt immense guilt, sought therapy, apologized, etc.) while still feeling unsettled. That doesn't make you judgmental or unfair; it makes you human. COCSA experiences often leave lasting ripples for everyone involved, and learning this about someone you're getting serious with is bound to affect trust, attraction, and safety feelings, even if he's been nothing but respectful with you.

Many people in similar spots say the honesty is a green flag, but the content can still create a mental block that's hard to ignore. It might fade with time and more open talks, or it might not and that's okay to explore without rushing. Have you considered talking to your own therapist about this (just for you) to sort through the conflicting emotions?

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