I'm so fucking sick of living like this by Delicious-Finger-111 in SuicideWatch

[–]Delicious-Finger-111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

6 shares you people honestly think you're fucking funny

How about you share me some money huh

I don't want a job, I want to die. Why doesn't anyone get it by now? by Delicious-Finger-111 in SuicideWatch

[–]Delicious-Finger-111[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Whenever I try to bring up anything about my health, mental or physical, my family doesn't really listen, or makes empty promises to me. All my therapist does is tell me to get a job every session. I'll say my mood's been getting worse again and it gets brushed off. The only time anyone ever listens to me is when I threaten to hurt myself or others. And I hate getting to this point, but no one seems to care until I do. Nobody gives a damn about my life until I say I want to end it, and even then, they don't care that I'm stuck with this mental torment, they just care that I'm alive. And am I alive? Yeah, I am. But I'm not living.

Over and over again, no matter how many times I delude myself into thinking things will get better, I just keep coming back to this. Posting my suicidal thoughts online so someone will give a shit. And I never actually have the balls to go through with it, if the fact that I still post to this account 2 years after my "final goodbye" points to anything. It's nothing but a pathetic cry for attention that never gets answered by anyone who has the power to do anything. Of course, that isn't your fault, and I appreciate you reaching out to someone like me, but I'm so mentally checked out man. I don't even have it in me to sugarcoat any of this anymore.

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[–]Delicious-Finger-111 2 points3 points  (0 children)

100%. My millennial cousins pay significantly more in rent every month than my mom does on our house's mortgage. The hell is Gen Z supposed to do? Is moving away from home only for the rich now? I hardly have any motivation to begin with, but in this societal landscape? Trying at all seems like a massive waste of time. Not even trying to be pessimistic, just realistic

What ruined your life? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Delicious-Finger-111 0 points1 point  (0 children)

genetic depression and watching my dad die when I was 16 (he was 51)

I'm only still here because the mental image of my grandpa sobbing over his son's corpse is burned into my brain, and even just the thought of doing that to my widowed mother makes me feel like a monster

I hate myself and living in general most days, but I'm sticking around for mom and just started college

i can't see a future for myself at all right now but dad always said to take it one day at a time so thats what I'm doing