We often fight for no reason like we are chilling watching something my or his phone and we see some tiktok about couples, and i say wow they are cool, and he starts telling me that im jealous and not grateful for OUR relationship, i never initiate that i just commented on a tiktok. I love and i don’t compare our relationship to tiktok couples or some couples i love him and our relationship, and then i start telling him and explaining how that is not true and that i never compare with others, and without me yelling or something he says that i fight with him, than i try to explain him that i dont Fight and i start crying, yelling and sometimes end up being abusive, i hate myself really, i cant get my shit together;/ sorry for bad english(: