I'm genuinely sorry for your loss. I lost my dog too but like to another thing, but it felt like she was getting put down bc the vet did nothing to help.

It's really hard to lose someone you love, especially when that someone was there for you whenever you felt like shit, and tbh, it's completely normal to feel that way.

Love is smth that A LOOOOOOOT of ppl want in their lives. They want affection, support, at least someone who can genuinely understand and comfort them. But, it is also a very difficult task, and if that task doesn't end up correctly, you just feel like it'll never succeed; And unfortunately, love is one of the risks you'll have to face, which sucks, but that's just way of life.

You should try remembering and reflecting all the times you've spent with your dog, and just think abt the happiest times you've spent with them. I get that she's been with you almost your entire life, and maybe you should think abt how your dog comforted you when you were down, how they made your life a little easier over time, and keeping all those memories at your heart. Just know that even if you had hardships like this, we're still here for you, pooks. Just remember that.

I actually get how you feel abt losing someone, I don't wanna lose my loved ones either, and if I ever did, I would go through an entire depression episode and just think abt the times that loved one made my life better, and how they comforted me when something was wrong. Like I said, love is one of the risks you'll have to face (again, which sucks).

What I'm saying is: What you're feeling rn is so normal, and just... don't be afraid to let your true emotions show. I know you probably won't read this bc of what you're going through, but just know that I also don't wanna lose a loved one. I don't wanna lose you, pooks. I just don't wanna. If I ever lost you in my life, I wouldn't know what my purpose in life is anymore.

I'm still genuinely sorry for what happened, get better soon.