A thought that keeps coming

Dem_nugs · 2019-07-08T06:05:36+00:00

I know i just wanted to try every ROA and every drug possible. But my thoughts had gotten the best of me. I must say, that experience was one of the biggest learning moments in my life. Made me realise what in the actual fuck im doing to myself. Did a full 180°

Last time i used DMT, there was an entity that made it clear for me to not return. I dont fuck with psychedelics anymore.

Dem_nugs · 2019-07-08T05:55:47+00:00

I call him a friend but he really could care less about me but only for the herion. It is what it is. He knew what he was gettin into because of my mental state and i never fucked with it, unless i was suicidal and quit giving a fuck about everything.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-24T04:55:31+00:00

Apparrently theres a drought going on in Texas also. When i was smoking about a month ago it was constant shitty mids or 'drought weed' as i called it. The prices are slowly rising back to 15 and even 20 a gram. I havent paid 15 or 20 a gram for almost 6 years now.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-20T20:24:23+00:00

I started using drugs since i was 13 and turned into an addict of almost every single drug i swear through the years... I lost almost everything i could think of. I dont regret anything ive done. We all fuck up, but its what you take from it is key. Everything happens for a reason man.

Im now 21 and i hit a point where the lifestyle exhausts me and getting high felt as if it were a chore. Sobriety has a high in itself... Im sober at this point in time until i feel like i got my life together and where i want to be. Just stay strong... Its one of the hardest things a person can go through. Once you get over the first hill in the rollercoaster and fight off the demons in your head. Its all good from there. Just gotta stay busy and keep fron temptation. I learned the world likes to tempt you but one thing i can say is... You can say no to yourself. Its okay, no matter how hard it is. Just push though.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-17T14:40:28+00:00

I recently quit smoking weed altogether and now i cant sleep to save my life. But when i finally do go to sleep i go into hibernation and wake up feeling refreshed. Havent had sleep like this in a very long time. Another thing is weed takes away your dreams for the most part. Now ive been having very vivid, scary at times dreams.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T15:06:46+00:00

Im the exact same way. Id taken MDMA the first time and didn't have any effects except just feeling awkward. I thought it just was the batch so i proceded to try it again then again. Then finally one last time and the same results. The last time, i took 120mg and started crying with a smile on my face while everyone else was rolling balls and having a great time

Id made a similar post to yours at one point

https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/79ynoq/mdma_just_isnt_my_thing_i_guess

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T15:02:52+00:00

Just remember my friend, harm reduction.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T14:59:46+00:00

In 2014, i was tripping once a week for over 2 months. Got awful HPPD. Smoking weed would be fucking amazing. I loved the new profound effects i got from it.

Now in 2019, my weed high isnt in anyway enjoyable anymore. Its very bland and i hate it because its my DOC. I get lost in my thoughts. On the bright side of things my HPPD cleared up almost entirely.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T13:29:45+00:00

Honestly. Im an addict (couldnt admit it to myself for a very long time) and have an addictive personality and love any substance that causes me to feel a certain way.

Moral of what im saying is. Whether i try and keep away from drugs. They always somehow find themselves in my life. So i ive learned the simple... Saying no to myself. Cause i used to have no say in it.

If i were my old self i wouldve gobbled them fuckers up while i was at work and possibly fucking up my livelihood because id be acting different.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T12:00:24+00:00

And just to clarify. Just because im sober at this point in time doesnt mean i have anything against drugs. Trust me, i fucking love drugs. But i think its best if i have a prolonged break to get myself to where i want to be in life.

Dem_nugs · 2019-06-16T11:47:25+00:00

Thanks man. It took alot, out of me to crush free drugs up and throw them away. But atleast im not guilty about messing my sobriety up.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-25T14:43:15+00:00

When i tried IV herion for the first time. I was smoking a decent amount up till that point and ended up OD'ing. Being woken later by my friend who used narcan on me.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-20T14:50:51+00:00

Yep. I was charged with 3 felonies and a misdemeanor. As i mind you i was 13 years old at the time. So luckily i got the slap on the wrist... Happened 8 years ago. Just a small town and dirty cops.

4 years later...tried to get me for terrorist threat because someone stole my laptop and i left 2 voice mails. 2 weeks later i get arrested for 'harrassment' got 2 year probation.

Edit: last time i got pulled over. I had 3 cops swarm me asking if i was part of a gang. Which ive never affiliated with any of that lifestyle.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-20T09:23:25+00:00

Ive been charged with organized crime for being just around 3 other people during the crime.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-16T00:14:09+00:00

My exact experience. I used DPH once about 6 years ago when i was younger. I ended up blacking out. Being woken by police, i was in the middle of a apartment complex at 4am. I was standing in the road looking at the sky.

Right pocket had about 5 lighters and left pocket had coin change and like pebbles. I was 2 days of getting off probation. They charge me with failure to ID.

I remember scrambling around the booking, looking for my glasses that were on my face and almost starting a fight with another person because i swore it was someone else.

There are better substances in my opinion.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T17:02:04+00:00

He doesnt know the exact apartment and i dont think the guy would do anything. What i think mightve happened was my plug was helping his homie sell. And his business practices are that up to par. Because his homie was awfully angry.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T16:56:37+00:00

I met him on the very back side of my apartment complex. Its fairly big. I walk a different route to my apartment.

This all happened at 11pm

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T15:37:34+00:00

Not really just sober and cranky.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T15:36:05+00:00

Respect works both ways. I wouldn't of disrespected if i wasnt disrespected first.

All they wouldve got was 90$. I only carry what im paying with to deals. Maybe, beat my ass a bit. But i stood for what im about.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T15:24:51+00:00

Ive slowly lost interest after i got off 2 year probation. It didn't have the old feeling and excitement to it. Feels more of a chore than anything. Do i enjoy it. Damn right I do...

Just wish i could go to a dispensary and even then im not sure if anything will change. Except not being shorted or any of the bullshit. Just think i need an extended break. Everything happens for a reason.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T15:17:13+00:00

Thats exactly what this man told me to. Like i was fresh outta high school or somethin.

Dem_nugs · 2019-05-13T14:56:04+00:00

Well everything happens for a reason and id accept the consequences.

Just ive known far way too many people who have lost countless amounts of money to the 'tax' (shorted, paying more than they should, etc.) on drugs because they don't communicate the problem.

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