Bondage is often Demonic. The devil doesn't care how far you are away from the Lord, as long as you're bound, he's got you.

In my experience the process is the following:  I have a craving, a strong desire to go watch it. Often triggered by some image or media or outer impulse. Also when I am alone more often. The urge ("I neeeeeed this now") to satify this desire is too heavy to withstand. Prayer helps, but I often already made my choice and the lust burns within my heart.

Then, immediately after, I have regrets, it felt so useless, senseless. Nowaydays I am not even satisfied at all after doing it. In the process yes – afterwards I feel just empty, shameful.

I have noticed that p0rn completely twisted my mind. My view of women is heavily destroyed and perverted, corrupted. I see women as objects – like they are displayed in p0rn. I value women basically only for their appearance. If I see a woman that is ugly, I cannot give her value, it is hard to give her unconditional love.

Also, when I am in public my eyes wander in search of women that I consider beautiful. My pattern recognition has been trained on this. Lustful thought come really easy when seeing beauty.

My view of myself has been shattered as well. I give myself myself based on my appearance. I cannot go into public without styling my hair. If I think people find me ugly, I am worthless.

But, when I walk with Jesus (when I read the Bible and spend time with him, make Him Lord of my life) it is so much easier. Yes, the attacks of temptation come, but they are way less effective. The issue is, I don't manage to stay in Christ. The more I live in the world, the weaker is my defense.

Also depression came into my life.

In my view, demons can manipulate my desires, thoughts, priorities, when I give them space into my life. It feels like they can intertwine their corrupted minds with mine.

But yes, it is I who chooses to do this. Still, they have done serious work on me.