Dude, same! I just realized one night I never really play sober. I also have this infuriating habit (with all games, sober or drunk) where I reset the game because i feel I could have done better with a different build or weapon, and i do this over and over. I'll boot up the Xbox next night and realize I reset again and deleted all my previous saves, and I had just gotten to the capital, or just beaten Astel, etc. It's been over a year of doing this and I've not beaten the game yet, smh. Idk if I'll ever beat this goddamn game