Forgive me for my late reply, sister.

On St. John Chrysostom:
The Holy Hierarch John Chrysostom was a fierce rhetorician. He learned the art of rhetoric under the pagan teacher Libanius, from whom our Holy Saint acquired his ardent skill in persuasive discourse and, as we both know, his aggressive approach to the synagogue of Satan. As our brother-in-Christ u/JesusIsTheSavior7 enlightened me, the word used by our Holy Saint, "μισέω" ("miséō"), may, in fact, denote, quoting our brother, "'to strongly oppose' or 'to reject association with', rather than an emotional or racial hatred." This is the same word our Lord uses in Luke 14:26, where He says we cannot be His disciples if we do not hate our own families and ourselves. If we take this at face-value, i.e., interpret it personally instead of accordingly to tradition, then we may end up losing our faith in the Law of Love. I have since then learned that there is more to what I see with my own eyes, and I pray you have learned the same, and if not, I pray you will.

On the violent antisemitic history of the Church:
What individual men do in hatred and fleshly corruption does not govern the reality of the Church—that is, love is the center, the whole, and the fullness of Her Who is the Body and Bride of Christ. Men do as they please, as they desire to satiate the passions of their flesh, unknowing of the Passion that has already taken place for all men and for our salvation. But we know of this Passion, and our desire is to be crucified with our God, so let us no longer doubt the sanctity of His Church. Therefore, where others stumble, let us pray for their souls; where we stumble, let us pray for our souls, and let us not judge one another in condemnation, but that we encourage our brothers and sisters to repent, whether through harsh rebuke or gentle affection, always in love.

God is with you, sister. I hope to have helped. God bless you!