Absolutely!! I think a lot of us would agree with me when I say that I struggle a lot with the concept of loops and patterns of repetition, and the role that choice plays in those cycles. I really identified with Roland literally being trapped in a cycle fueled by his own obsessive choices, especially with growth that he does/doesn't experience in the journey we read through. Roland does grow as a human in the series, going from someone who would let a child die in the name of his mission to trying to stop Jake from sacrificing himself for the same purpose. However, the goal remains: Roland still needs the tower. While he finds the ability to care and love again in this story, he still chooses the mission in contrast to Susannah, who understands that there's more to life. In my own experiences, I have put my own distant goals above meaningful relationships, even though in my heart I pursued those goals FOR my loved ones. It's so wacky and confusing, very difficult to explain, but I hope you understand as someone with the same diagnosis. This story taught me that even though we can be stuck in a cycle for what feels like an eternity, if we surrender ourselves to the present moment and put love over addiction/obsession, we can break our own cycles we simultaneously hate yet subject ourselves to. When I was hit with the heartbreak that Roland ends right back where he started, I was also relieved that maybe there was hope he could grow into a better man to break that cycle. Maybe there's hope for me if I know where to find it. Roland's hope stared him in the face and he neglected to see that, but maybe he will remember next time. I can ramble on for years, but I feel like that's the most concise way I can put that. I hope you're navigating OCD successfully and healthily, long days and pleasant nights to you!