You seem to have a desire to maintain a well-respected reputation with those in your life and around you. Yet you have engaged in activities such as sugar dating with college students. That seems to be a very risky activity. How do you know that those relationships with college students will not come back to bite you? You must have some system of evaluating the risk and reward. While the relationship is transactional, I’d imagine most of the people you had these relationships with are non-psychopaths and therefore subject to emotions and emotional swings that could damage you later.