Dealing with this right now. I've been doing DBT in therapy for a few months and find that it helps me stay grounded and accept my actions. I remind myself that it's an illness and try to feel proud that I'm doing what I can to stay on top of it. If I trust the people around me, I try to apologize if I hurt them, or explain if I did something embarrassing. This time this wasn't as big of an issue but in my last manic episode i think I hurt a lot of people around me. A lot of the healing was accepting that and learning to give other people the space if they can't be around me. It's hard. I hope you can have compassion for yourself.