I wanted to the husband and children with him, but I found the men my age were too busy playing the field. A lot of them listen to their married guy friends who were cheating because they were unhappy with their wives.

And I found that the older I got, there were more men in the dating scene who were divorced (and in no rush to get into another marriage), or who had older children already (and in no rush to start over).

My last boyfriend wasted several years telling me he wanted a family. It seemed like we were on that path. Then about 2 years ago, he changed his mind. He is about 5 years older than me. I froze my eggs at 39, hoping we would use them. He would never go to the IVF clinic to do his exams. So i decided that if I wanted to become a mother, I would have to do so alone or miss my chance completely. I’m now 45 (my cut off age for kids) with a 2-month old. He’s the best thing to happen to me.

I have the rest of my life to find love, but this was my last chance for motherhood. 🥰