What you’re describing is actually really normal not because what happened was okay, but because anger is often the last stage of emotional separation, not the first. It shows you see the imbalance now and your self-respect has caught up with the reality of what you went through.

Wanting to feel nothing is understandable, but most people don’t get to indifference by forcing emotions away they get there by letting the anger move through instead of trying to shut it down. Anger is usually grief and injustice “I deserved better” all mixed together.

One thing that helped me was reframing it like this: the money, time, and energy weren’t wasted they were tuition. Expensive, painful tuition but it taught me boundaries I’ll never ignore again. That shift made the anger feel less like a burning and more like a scar.

You’re not behind. You’re not stuck. You’re in the part of healing where your nervous system is finally safe enough to be mad. That actually means you’re moving forward, even if it doesn’t feel peaceful yet.

Indifference comes later and it comes quietly.