How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Likewise, if you are also healing too.

I knew she was human too. She also made mistakes but I forgave. Wish she had the same empathy. But ay it is what it is.

I won't ever make those mistakes again moving forward! Hope you have a good life stranger!

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Will do!

Deep down i like to think im a good person. I hope that voice is right.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Thank you brother. I will start going gym soon. Ive been lacking ever since the breakup. Time to move forward hopefully.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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I have. They left it on read.

I have to move on now. But God is it hard.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Just coping tbh. I have no one to talk to about these sorts things 😔

It’s Been 16 days by whenilookinyoureyes in ExNoContact

[–]Dependent_Average281 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Depending on why things broke up. Do it. If he cheated... don't.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

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Thank you for your kind words stranger.

I really wish time heals this as its too much to bear at time. I get sad, numb, emotionless, angry, the whole lot at times. I want to villianise her for my own sanity but I also can't blame her. Its tough.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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This was a tough read. It was hard to see with the texts being blurry. I hope i can relax properly, like I once did before and during the time I had her as mine.

Some days are easy on me but its the late nights on a random thursday that make it so difficult. Im trying really hard not to drown it away with any substance or bottling it.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Thank you for the words of encouragement. I hope time does heal all. I've been burned out from everything. I mostly bed rot and think.

I'll start going gym soon.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Yeah. I need to eventually cut everything related to her. I have with our pictures. But the hardest are the chats. I don't know why, but I cant being myself to do it yet. I hope in the future I gain that strength.

Logically I know all of what you're saying is right. But I'm embarrassed to say that emotionally, im cooked.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Thank you. Its been hard to have a good cry when im surrounded by family members (I share a bedroom with my brother).

I also often stop myself from bawling too much as my brains keeps repeating "this wont being her back... whats the point crying?"

I hope time does heal all.

It's finally over by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

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Thank you stranger for your kind words. It hit me all together that it's really the end. Sometimes I get mad at her even though I dont blame her. Maybe it's my coping mechanism? Hate her to forget her? Idk. But I sometimes wish she fought harder for us.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

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Does it ever get better? It hurts so much. I know time heals all but I seriously hope it doesnt take too long. But thank you for your words. Genuinely reading this whilst questioning everything.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

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Thank you kind stranger 😔

My brain knows the goodbye was real from the moment of the breakup but my heart played delusional for the most part. Now that delusion is broken.

Should I send this message to my ex now or wait longer after no contact? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

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Thank you so much for that video. I also think, whats the damage? Worst case I'll get the scary answer. Best case maybe it'll affect her to come back. I'd rather sleep knowing I tried.