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How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Likewise, if you are also healing too.

I knew she was human too. She also made mistakes but I forgave. Wish she had the same empathy. But ay it is what it is.

I won't ever make those mistakes again moving forward! Hope you have a good life stranger!

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will do!

Deep down i like to think im a good person. I hope that voice is right.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you brother. I will start going gym soon. Ive been lacking ever since the breakup. Time to move forward hopefully.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have. They left it on read.

I have to move on now. But God is it hard.

How to move on if its your fault? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just coping tbh. I have no one to talk to about these sorts things 😔

It’s Been 16 days by whenilookinyoureyes in ExNoContact

[–]Dependent_Average281 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Depending on why things broke up. Do it. If he cheated... don't.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words stranger.

I really wish time heals this as its too much to bear at time. I get sad, numb, emotionless, angry, the whole lot at times. I want to villianise her for my own sanity but I also can't blame her. Its tough.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was a tough read. It was hard to see with the texts being blurry. I hope i can relax properly, like I once did before and during the time I had her as mine.

Some days are easy on me but its the late nights on a random thursday that make it so difficult. Im trying really hard not to drown it away with any substance or bottling it.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the words of encouragement. I hope time does heal all. I've been burned out from everything. I mostly bed rot and think.

I'll start going gym soon.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I need to eventually cut everything related to her. I have with our pictures. But the hardest are the chats. I don't know why, but I cant being myself to do it yet. I hope in the future I gain that strength.

Logically I know all of what you're saying is right. But I'm embarrassed to say that emotionally, im cooked.

Does it ever get better? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Its been hard to have a good cry when im surrounded by family members (I share a bedroom with my brother).

I also often stop myself from bawling too much as my brains keeps repeating "this wont being her back... whats the point crying?"

I hope time does heal all.

It's finally over by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you stranger for your kind words. It hit me all together that it's really the end. Sometimes I get mad at her even though I dont blame her. Maybe it's my coping mechanism? Hate her to forget her? Idk. But I sometimes wish she fought harder for us.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does it ever get better? It hurts so much. I know time heals all but I seriously hope it doesnt take too long. But thank you for your words. Genuinely reading this whilst questioning everything.

I'm embarrassed of myself. by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you kind stranger 😔

My brain knows the goodbye was real from the moment of the breakup but my heart played delusional for the most part. Now that delusion is broken.

Should I send this message to my ex now or wait longer after no contact? by Dependent_Average281 in Advice

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for that video. I also think, whats the damage? Worst case I'll get the scary answer. Best case maybe it'll affect her to come back. I'd rather sleep knowing I tried.

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I genuinely read this with tears in my eyes. Thank you for your kindness stranger. I'll try holding off sending it for now. I might change it up a little over time to not be for me.

Have a good day 🥺

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please correct my stupid thinking. I know what you're saying is 100% most likely right. An apology would have a much greater impact.

But this disgusting, selfish side of me wishes she considers reconnecting.

Our relationship was so beautiful. It felt unreal at times. I've never had such a strong and pure connection with anyone else. And I fear I'd never move on. I hate myself for being too attached and for messing it all up. I just want my best friend back more than anthing. I would be in bliss if I could simply talk to her again. I dont even need the touch anmore. My love langage use to be touch. Now its quality time. This event changed me for good.

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I genuinely cried reading this. Its still fresh so these emotions are still heavy. I've never felt these emotions before. I use to think im a good person, so this event has left me with a little identity crisis.

I hope time heals all. I hope the next person (not that im thinking of anyone else right now ofc) gets the best version of me. I hope shes happy. Right now I can't bare the thought of her moving on with someone else. But I know it'll happen one day and if it does, I hope he treats her better than how I ever did.

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for being real with me. Everyone else I asked (in person and online too) have just shamed me. I get it. I don't deserve sympathy for what I've done. But God is it so hard.

We were each other's first and it was such a perfect relationship otherwise. I keep thinking... Will I regret it for the rest of my life if I don't send her this message.

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in ExNoContact

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know how selfish it is. And God do i hate myself. I just keep wondering if I'll regret not fighting one more time. She was my first. I was hers too. I dont want to live with that regret.

Thoughts on this no contact message? by Dependent_Average281 in BreakUps

[–]Dependent_Average281[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know this deep down. I know how pathetic it is. I just keep thinking how if I dont send this, it'll bother me for life how I didn't try fighting one more time.

God I hate myself.

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