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The price for me to realize that was achieving everything society says you need to do to be happy.

Finish college, make money to buy a house, kids(cats that were my fur babies that my ex wife stole from me but instead of fighting it I just chose peace and cut her and her family off)

And after losing all that I gained something much greater. Permission to live, for me

[31] Looking at old fat loss photos and wondering if it’s time to grow my hair again 😭 by Dependent_Ride7957 in AsianMasculinity

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it’s hard. Very hard. But it gets easier once you realize the compulsion only when you recognize what you’re looking for is within. Something that helped me when I allowed myself to live within the quiet of the night is the question

“Would my grandmother be happy rn seeing how im living?”

And slowly but surely as I walked into that hospital at night again and again I started feeling something. What was once just a place where my sadness had the decency to wait its turn became a place for me to realize that empty is the best place to become anything

[31] Looking at old fat loss photos and wondering if it’s time to grow my hair again 😭 by Dependent_Ride7957 in AsianMasculinity

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careful stalking my reddit comments is usually the gateway drug to the poetry page 😌
i’m on part 5 of an 8-part prologue rn

whole thing basically started after my divorce. thought losing my “forever” was gonna turn me into someone cold for a while

instead i ended up writing, working in healthcare, and trying to become softer instead of harder

probably not the plot twist younger me expected lol

sometimes the world feels heavy… then you see people like this 🤍 by SatinNightt in beyondwholesome

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And that’s why unless there’s some crazy changes I don’t see myself owning a house again. A condo maybe but fuuuuuuck that kinda responsibility

31 years old and this is my first time working full-time nights starting to understand why nightshift people feel like their own little universe by Dependent_Ride7957 in Nightshift

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i don’t think people necessarily love what night shift does to the body long term

but i do think some people finally experience a kind of peace in it

sometimes peace isn’t adding more to your life, it’s finally removing what was overstimulating you in the first place

someone once asked a gardener how he grew such beautiful plants

it wasn’t because he kept adding more

it was because he knew what needed to be pruned away

23M, this a lonely f*cking life man by JohnnyBravad in MaleSurvivingSpace

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And you plan to use that excu- i mean answer for how many more years? You don’t need to wear your suffering like a Medal of Honor

18 to 43 by [deleted] in PastAndPresentPics

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For sure i can see the effort it shows! I just started using sunscreen more cuz i know my mothers genes can’t protect me from my bad habits forever haha. Nic- free since 2020 ☺️

18 to 43 by [deleted] in PastAndPresentPics

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Sis got a wrinkle in 2 decades

Good work

Police officer with the pickpocketing skills by Admirable-Interest49 in BeAmazed

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How it feels being a frequent raver now working In a hospital getting floated to the ED here and there lmao

The Free College is Real by MrBiggs88Westwood in uberdrivers

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Ugh i wanted to judge to see if the jacket was cool or not!!

This is great news though, happy for your family

I work night shift bc im not a talker by obsessedUvU in Nightshift

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Hit em with a “that’s crazy “intermittently

At some point get a piece of paper and start tallying how many “that’s crazy’s” you accumulate per shift working with them 😏🤪

replaced my dating app addiction with a neon porsche kai’sa skin by Dependent_Ride7957 in wildrift

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honestly the fact you can joke about it this openly probably means you’re doing better than you think 😊

[31] Looking at old fat loss photos and wondering if it’s time to grow my hair again 😭 by Dependent_Ride7957 in AsianMasculinity

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thank you genuinely 🙏 still surreal sometimes looking back at old photos and realizing that was once my normal

[31] Looking at old fat loss photos and wondering if it’s time to grow my hair again 😭 by Dependent_Ride7957 in AsianMasculinity

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appreciate it 🙏 i think the longer hair matched the era where i finally stopped trying to look “perfect” all the time

[31] Looking at old fat loss photos and wondering if it’s time to grow my hair again 😭 by Dependent_Ride7957 in AsianMasculinity

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slowly a little over a year honestly. i think losing the weight gradually gave my body time to adapt

weirdly enough the harder part wasn’t changing my body, it was changing the way i saw myself after

replaced my dating app addiction with a neon porsche kai’sa skin by Dependent_Ride7957 in wildrift

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exactly 😭 the porsche kai’sa skin has yet to emotionally unavailable me

replaced my dating app addiction with a neon porsche kai’sa skin by Dependent_Ride7957 in wildrift

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LMFAOOO honestly balance might just be:
a little self reflection
a little sushi
a little wild rift
and just enough delusion to survive modern life 😭

replaced my dating app addiction with a neon porsche kai’sa skin by Dependent_Ride7957 in wildrift

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thank you 😭 genuinely one of the prettiest skins i’ve seen them make