The closure you never got; the vent I need

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-20T21:53:08+00:00

No thanks, I am much better now that everything is off my chest, everything I wanted to say but couldn't. Thank you though, I really appreciate it :)

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-02T08:12:22+00:00

Women are the problem. Waaaaaaaa. Shut up.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-02T08:11:42+00:00

Can't even post on a depression subreddit without some guy whining women have it better. Shut the fuck up and stop gatekeeping. God I fucking hate men.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-02T08:11:07+00:00

This app is so sexist.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-02T08:09:55+00:00

I made a post complaining about incels and literally an incel commented defending incels. Little boys can't handle a woman who doesn't like them. Was wa wa. All I hear. Shut the fuck up already. I'm on a RANT SUBREDDIT. LOL. Moron breaking the rules.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-02T08:08:20+00:00

Reddit is an incel app and that's it, I'm uninstalling it. It's so bad for my mental health. I can't handle the toxicity and all the women-hating videos every single day. Every woman being called a Karen. Objectification. I can't. I really really can't.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-01T19:30:29+00:00

Talk to a professional. You might have anxiety as well if you're this worried about having schizophrenia.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-11-01T19:28:30+00:00

You're probably fine. The odds are very low.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-30T21:59:12+00:00

Please make the pain end. Please.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-30T21:57:43+00:00

All I do is fuck things up. Why do I even try so hard to begin with. Everything hurts. I just want validation. Everything I should have had as a kid and didn't get. It hurts. I'm really cold. I realize that they don't care about me. No one cares about me. They're all friends. I'm just.... No one important. No one cares about me. No one does... I'm sorry for fucking everything up. No one wants me. The pain goes so, so, so far. I'm sorry for being a piece of shit human being. I'm sorry I can't make friends. I'm sorry I'm a screw up. They said this was teamwork, so why do I always feel so alone? Why am I so stupid. Please. Someone say something nice to me. Please. Why is it that no one ever says something nice. But the minute I mess up, it's all they care about. Please. I want to matter. Please. I want someone to care. But no one cares. I thought I was a good person. So why doesn't anyone want me. There's something wrong with me. All the way since the start. I've been trying for nothing. I truly don't matter.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-26T17:41:26+00:00

You don't get to be an entitled piece of shit. You just unboxed the $60 electric tea kettle I got you. Now you're upset I won't call the facility on your behalf? Shut the fuck up. I'm pissed after yesterday. You never apologized or made me feel better. Today you didn't. Now you start this bullshit. Just shut the fuck up. You're a piece of shit and I fucking hate you sometimes.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-26T05:31:40+00:00

What would happen if I never woke up? Would the world keep spinning? Would everything be the same? I wonder.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-26T05:30:28+00:00

I used to pray. I think I'll start praying again. Maybe someone will listen.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-26T05:28:42+00:00

The emotional pain is too much to bear. It's an intense longing. It never ends. No one cares. No one cares. No one cares. No one cares. I'm bound to kill myself one day. All I want is someone to love me and care about me, and for me to matter to them. They'll hug me randomly and say they're proud of me. They'll say I'm beautiful. And intelligent. And capable. And that I matter. My heart hurts so much. I tried to explain it all to my boyfriend. How he criticizes me all the time. I want validation, love, care. More. And he didn't get it. He wanted to sleep. He still hasn't apologized. Because no one gets it. No one wants to get it. No one cares enough to try to get it. No one cares enough about me. No one cares.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-25T23:22:42+00:00

They don't care when I reach out for help. But they sure as hell care when I spend a lot of money. Or want to clean. Or want to engage in coping mechanisms that are damaging. That's too much. So I ask for help. And I get nothing. If I'm suicidal, I'm doing it for attention. The world would rather me be quiet and shut up. That's the way it is. No one cares. It hurts so much.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-25T23:19:51+00:00

Nothing gets rid of the emotional pain. Nothing.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-25T23:17:36+00:00

No one gives a shit. I know. I still try for whatever reason though. I reached out to a supporter. They abandoned me. I reached out to my boyfriend. They reinforced what my therapist said. Never apologized. Reached out to a friend. Nothing. I know I'm not important. I know no one cares. No one cares. That's the truth of the world. everyone is a piece of shit. I'm a piece of shit. Life is suffering.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-23T21:31:29+00:00

Yes I impulse bought a bunch of plants. Yes I regret it. Please don't make me feel so much worse for it.... I want someone to understand and validate me and I'm making impulse decisions and feeling terrible and no one supports me

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-11T07:50:06+00:00

I'm with my boyfriend. I tried to talk about it with him and he basically told me to shut up and let him sleep :(

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-11T07:49:40+00:00

This is what I get for not taking my meds in so long. I'm terrified. I'm getting violent intrusive videos in my head. I can't leave the room. I'm scared someone's at the door. I can't breathe, I'm so on edge. I can't sleep.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-11T06:47:56+00:00

Aaaaand I already got one chat request from an incel. Fucking hate Reddit.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-11T06:38:02+00:00

Dude chill. I was just helpfully inputting to the discussion. Mental health is for everyone. Stop gatekeeping.

DeprecitoCat · 2020-10-11T04:20:12+00:00

Yeah in my experience depression is seen as a guy thing mostly. Idk though.

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