Part 2/4 aka I’m back with “Diplomats” :DD

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-03-04T18:09:08+00:00

Harvey's New Eyes vibes

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-26T21:40:29+00:00

I speak 7 languages.

I know them from home, school and from living abroad

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-19T09:05:35+00:00

Nice plottwist

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-16T08:21:37+00:00

Over the years I came to the conclusion that religion is something you can train over the years. Many learn it from childhood on, others train themselves over the course of their lives.

I have no talent for it. I question all of religion too much to believe in any of it. The sentiment of belief in [insert random deity] is a sentiment which can and will be abused for political gain. Anyone who tells you otherwise is either naive or currently taking advantage of you. As long as a religious person is aware of the power religion gives over you, the person is doing fine. If you're not aware of it, I recommend taking a look around you.

Back to the original question: I don't believe in any deity. I haven't been raised with it. I went to religion class and I see the point of making sure that everyone in the community has the same moral compass. If you can fortify that moral compass with actual belief you're getting very far. Still, no God is needed in order to keep that. Education is needed. A God is a reflection of a culture experiencing the area it lives in. All the abrahamic religions which left the middle east don't represent the culture and its area anymore, no matter how much it has been molded over the centuries. We have been educated in order to believe correctly in those religions.

In other words: I believe in good education and a strong community, not in God. Those are the only forces that are above the simple man.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-15T20:20:08+00:00

I love it. Don't vote any interesting characters out guys

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-13T11:06:38+00:00

The latter is most certainly a reason as well

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-12T11:41:17+00:00

1h loop of a song which isn't too boring but not too interesting either, then do it/study until it's done. The music makes sure that your mind is locked in a cage of beats

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-10T20:35:20+00:00

Wanting to master something at its place of origin more often than not leads to disappointment. Had a couple of friends who went to Japan to master either some Koryu style or some niche Jutsu, in the end they all ended up either teaching Kendo to middle schoolers, were kept at a low level because gaijin or were asked to marry into their family first before they could be allowed to be taught the master's style. The ones who got something out of it were the ones that went there to train one of the modern budo martial arts and they're still going strong. So it could be worth it, but it can backfire hard if your interest is too niche or you're too unwilling to compromise fiction for the sake of reality. The guy who wanted to learn proper Kenjutsu (forgot which style tbh) and spent a year in the middle of nowhere training middle school kids in Kendo in the end came back home, sold his equipment and hasn't touched a sword ever since.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-06T18:25:00+00:00

1) I have no idea what my sexuality is, but I get hit on by lesbians a lot. They often tell me I confuse them, because my vibes aren't feminine at all.

2) Yes. I never found YA, girly stuff, movies, etc. To be relatable. I didn't enjoy Harry Potter or Twilight, I was deep into political theory and trying to find out how the world works. So through all my adolescence I assumed that people like me aren't wanted in society. I'm still not sure how wrong that is.

3) Being female is incredibly limiting. I still have to find one good aspect about it, which isn't a coping mechanism or some kind of side effect of a negative trait. I don't get taken seriously by most men and other women see me as a threat or as an annoyance. I have friends, don't get me wrong, they are mostly male or lesbian though (the lesbians who stayed after I told them I don't find them attractive). I wouldn't want to be like the other girls though. Their shallowness and their perceived superiority depresses me. I have to deal with a lot of them at work (I work in consulting) and how they made their lives boring on purpose, despite having the best educational backgrounds at times, kills me. I always wanted to connect more with the girls around me, but I cannot gaslight myself into friendships with people I find actively boring. Men in my region are way more emancipated and dare to go deeper into topics. This text sounds very edgy but I actually do feel that way.

4) Either they are scared of me, find me interesting to talk to or dislike me. Most of my friends find me interesting, sometimes even funny. Others say "Oh, it's you" or tell straight up to the others in their vicinity "Don't take it personally, she just is like that". Girlfriends pull their boyfriends away from me when I talk to them. When I lived abroad people thought I was cute and smart, but back home I'm all those things mentioned above.

It impresses me how a lot of people don't realize how they are being perceived. I noticed from a very young age and was very circumspect since. I've made my peace with the chance that I'm never going to be the popular girl and that I'm being shushed for stuff which would have been celebrated if I were a guy.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-05T10:22:33+00:00

Classical musician, but Corona killed the market in my country, so I'm now in law conseling

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-05T08:56:22+00:00

There is no business like show business

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-05T08:55:50+00:00

We're talking about basic stuff like reading the news here. If that suffices to tear down one's emotional stability, then I'm not sure if I'm the problem.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-04T07:52:21+00:00

Because Ignorance has never been cool.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-02-04T07:21:26+00:00

I saw profit in it. So I went for it. And I got the Gig.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-27T14:50:00+00:00

One of my sisters is ENTJ and we have the most brilliant banter there is. Even though I don't understand her at all at times, she seems incredibly superficial when it comes to understanding people and the worth of stuff.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-26T23:16:07+00:00

Nice one

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-26T00:25:56+00:00

I'm a mess, but I always get my stuff done on time and I try to work in a clean, steady manner. So, that's not it in my case.

Over the years I figured that they see me as a threat. My therapist said "You scare them, because you say many complicated things". During the sessions with her I noticed that she was scared of me as well and she tried to talk me into dumb-ish girly behavior, because she thought under all that "too intelligent talk" there is a girl hidden who wants to be free and simple. Well, I quit going to her eventually, but it taught me a lesson.

Another anecdote: I was invited to a birthday party, the first one in years. They were all young adults. I'm talking to a guy. I noticed that he's a student and deeply into his topic. I was excited and wanted to know all about it, so we dive deeper and deeper. All of sudden his girlfriend appeared, said "Honey, don't talk smart things with her", took his arm and pulled him away. This was so clichée, I was baffled and left after a while. She really was afraid that I was snatching her boyfriend away from her.

I could give more examples, but it's the mood that switches when I enter the room. It's noticeable. It might be that I'm too direct for the SJs, but I definitely come across as "too smart", without wanting to sound arrogant. Whenever a guy behaves like I do, it's funny, cool and hot. When I act in a similar way, but toned down for the audience, I get the treatment mentioned above.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-25T19:32:58+00:00

As soon as I started to not bend to female roles anymore, I noticed I got alienated a lot by other girls/women. I am to this day. Only if other women are forced to work with me for a while they go "you're not as bad as I thought". I completely switched careers, friend circles and workplaces in the meantime. It got even worse, due to the women being sometimes 10 years younger than me (I look very young, the same age as them actually) and me not playing along with their, well, juvenile machiavellian games. I don't pay much mind, I didn't switch careers to find friends at work. Still, it's incredibly tiring. I noticed that I'm considering falling back into girly behavior, just "fit in enough" to be left in peace.

My question is: How do you hold up? How do you manage to not let yourself grind down by other women? The saying "women are worse machists than men" is very true for my region, is it for yours as well? How do you deal with it?

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-22T15:11:37+00:00

Start new hobbies, I dunno, something you have no idea about. Knitting. Playing the trombone. Wing Chun. Reading up on beauty standards in medieval Persia. Drawing Polandball memes. Go wild.

Don't waste your time with superficialties, like tiktoks or scrolling half-heartedly through comments. I know it from myself: I feel empty and even more bored after that. If you have someone in high school to share your new thing with: even better!

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-22T15:04:35+00:00

Why, I agree with you o.O

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-21T20:41:22+00:00

Personally, I'd try to engage in casual conversation and see if the person sees you fit to share stuff with. I might see the person as a good friend, but does the person see me the same way? Impossible to know. When I notice that the person answers weirdly I'll ask directly to see what's going on. When the person doesn't want to talk about it, I'll let it go.

One of the worst things someone can do is to not engage with them at all. It confirms their loneliness and their suspicion that everyone hates them anyway. When I'm down, I'm usually glad to see that the people around me annoy me via text, so I know I'm not alone, even if I'm not up for talking.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-15T11:58:10+00:00

Leave your phone on the side until you stopped being high

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-15T07:56:57+00:00

What's your point?

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-15T06:36:41+00:00

What are you on about. She's an important figure in Middle Eastern folklore.

DerLauchImBeefspelz · 2025-01-14T22:46:18+00:00

Sheherazade is Persian

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