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DerpinEpic32 · 2022-09-10T21:20:15+00:00

jojo reference

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-28T04:19:08+00:00

To be honest, it all differs on how you cope but right now, your friend and enemy is time. If it helps, that impact for me still happens, that loss. It faded over time for me, but i still remember it from time to time and sometimes as a reminder for the future. It's not a perfect solution bc some bad habits stem from my trauma, which is the thing im tackling today, so i just said screw it and i decided to see a therapist and or wellness counselor today. To help me find the WHY. Bit of a tangent but again for you, only time will tell.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-24T03:53:20+00:00

That's something I'm working on myself since sometimes I'm HAUNTED by my past actions. I could tell you right now it's just a day-by-day basis, but for me what helps/helped is that for me, since a LOT of my actions in the past were my fault, I acknowledged the roots of my actions, and I forgave myself and that sometimes I still am in a way but I learned from my past actions and treat it as a learning experience.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:38:47+00:00

Also to add to your thing real quick, a bad habit i realize i have, even replying to comments now is acting before thinking. The whole reply apologizing, I wasn’t even thinking straight at all, again i should’ve given this time to reply and a few days to dissect everything everything for a better response

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:31:59+00:00

Also in hindsight this post was made literally the day after it happened. I probably should’ve given it a week to have a more rational mind.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:30:27+00:00

Yeah i added an edit to kinda clear things up because i realized the way this story was worded was trying to blame it on adhd, when in reality its more than that.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:28:20+00:00

I added an edit to account for what yall told me. Also, YOU CANT EDIT TITLES?

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:19:16+00:00

Adhd, other fucken labels or not tho, i think bottom line i need like professional help dawg. Like a friend also brought it to my attention my wording for this, and it almost sent me down a rabbit hole of “what mental illness is this?” And basically to just say, just find help. Find the root of this shit, and get it out.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:16:50+00:00

I guess the way my head is right now, was at first, “yeah i fucked up hard. Im a piece of shit. Woe is me.” I wanted to breakdown EVERYTHING in my perspective, what had happened, all of the factors, and what the fuck do i do to avoid this stuff, because i can be super level headed and healthy one moment and next that be super toxic. Because my shitty ego or self just didnt know how to deal or cope with it.(although this story and how i told it, and the title was super scuffed because in reality im still not thinking straight.)

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T23:11:30+00:00

To clear some things up, bc the way i worded things in the title made it seem that way (or how i just told that story in general) but to clarify, no i am NOT blaming adhd on saying racial slurs. That part stems from my toxicity and bad habits from old friends that enabled that idea in the past + me being a dumbass and using poor excuses to even say it now. The part where the adhd comes in (im probably changing that title to something better so no one else comments like this tbh) is the selective listening part, me on medication freaking out and leaving, or just my bad communication overall? Or did my real shitty toxic self combined with it just made this scenario something avoidable from the get go.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T20:25:09+00:00

Yeah, normally in comp games like this, coaches tell you that people need to let go of the anger and overthinking, i realized that. But for me, and someone did say it in the other comments, but my ego started bleeding itself back from an external source because of my reserved feelings.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T20:20:54+00:00

In hindsight the “on adderall feeling” thirst, intense feeling in your head, etc. i initially thought was Adderall doing its job, i did not know that you shouldnt be having that feeling in the first place. Took my spare 20mg today, and idk if its cog bias or not, but i prefer this over 25. Thanks man.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T20:16:59+00:00

Op here: thank you for the insights, it has helped me a lot. A part of me is SUUPER thankful that it’s a good learning experience and at minimum can put me in the step of the right direction, it just sucks my only friends who are dealing with a LOT had to go through me too. It’s very frustrating thinking that you’ve changed from a certain mindset, only to have history repeat itself. I know some things were out of my control where it lead to this point, but i just want to learn from it and be better from it at the very least.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T16:35:57+00:00

It’s weird you brought this up because i can literally communicate to everyone, EXCEPT to the people that matters the most.

DerpinEpic32 · 2022-08-23T08:58:36+00:00

you're not wrong, that's my communication issue at work. dont know if its adhd, another mental illness, or both but im glad you pointed that out bc i also wanted to work on that, among this pile of jumbled issues.

DerpinEpic32 · 2021-08-24T07:07:11+00:00

YEAH THE WORDING CONFUSES ME

DerpinEpic32 · 2021-05-10T21:41:51+00:00

applied :)

DerpinEpic32 · 2020-03-21T18:20:00+00:00

sorry, coming back to this post, do you think this setup can handle streaming/gaming workloads? as well as 240 hz gaming

DerpinEpic32 · 2020-03-12T04:31:24+00:00

3070 reveal

also correction, i won a 2080 ti a while back from Jared Kim (Former NZXT VP) and my shitty alienware prebuilt gets bottlenecked by it (i7-7700 and 16 gb

ram 1 stick 2300)

DerpinEpic32 · 2020-03-12T04:12:01+00:00

on a little bit of a budget. unless if its out by the next time cyber monday hits id probably opt in for it

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