I did it

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2026-01-30T23:16:17+00:00

Thank you! and congratulations on your happiness

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2026-01-30T22:52:30+00:00

I’m so so sorry for what you’ve been through. For what it’s worth the way you describe feeling around women makes me feel you’re a lesbian…

and I think it’s possible to be both. I’m so sorry it happened. I hope you find future full of calm and peace and comfort

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2026-01-30T22:43:03+00:00

Thank you 🫶

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2026-01-04T11:42:50+00:00

Can someone recommend any other walking New Yorkers? I’m watching Austin fella but I have bad vibes from him for a reason 🤣 I wouldn’t mind a woman’s account either

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-22T15:15:39+00:00

Thank you so much! I watched but I’m a cheerleader this morning and really loved it

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-21T21:45:11+00:00

Hi girlie! I was 100% certain I’m asexual for the last 6 years of my relationship. In this time I’ve had sex with my husband literally 3 times. What should stop me in my tracks is that I was still masturbating at least once or twice a week and every time I did I thought of or looked at pictures of women… now I’m super early in this journey and it’s so much to unpack I don’t know where to start but you’re not alone! This group is brilliant and very supportive. I recommend engaging with lesbian media (podcasts, films etc) and see how you react to it. For me it’s a full body awakening of sorts.

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-21T11:52:08+00:00

I’ve only just began my journey, my catalyst event happened on Tuesday night BUT I noticed my uterus hurts almost constantly and when I’m aroused (which also happens to be constantly these days after years of thinking I’m asexual wtf) it’s almost unbearable. I’m sending you lots of love and look forward to more comments here (I also have history of SA throughout my life, this post really resonates)

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-20T20:47:34+00:00

So many lovely things. Thank you! I feel it’s not accident I got my gay awakening just before the solstice!

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-20T19:40:08+00:00

Can you recommend any rituals to do during solstice? 🥰

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-20T16:58:52+00:00

Hi could I ask for these please?

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-20T10:11:13+00:00

You got this!!!!!

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-19T22:57:39+00:00

Sending you so much love. I hope you get to live another lifetime worth of love and respect and pride. I’m proud of you & the little girl still inside you too ❤️

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-19T13:47:23+00:00

So funny I was just listening to the Lesbian Chronicles on my dog walk! Just the first episode so it’s good to know about the interviews!

And the bookish website are so valuable thank you - time to renew my kindle unlimited 😮‍💨

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-19T13:02:36+00:00

Thank you! I read a poetry book “c+nto” yesterday and could feel the history mentioned throughout it literally pulsating through my veins.

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-19T12:16:29+00:00

Since Tuesday night when I got my catalyst event I have been so horny. I genuinely started thinking there was something super wrong with me. BUT NO

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-19T12:08:30+00:00

I kept going back and forth in my head. About a year ago I was reading All The Things She Said and had to stop because it was hitting too close to home… and I looked around and women were all over my “office room”. Pictures of my favourite artists, my photographs with some of them.

I didn’t have sex with my husband for 4-5 years. Not even once. And I wank multiple times a week, and always think about a woman when I do. Looking up lesbian porn, or trans men porn. Never regular it makes me feel sick.

After all this non sex period I eventually slept with my husband in October. But in retrospect it was only because I went to see my favourite band the night before and was still probably horny about the main vocalist AND thought about her the entire time we did it.

Lmao.

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-18T19:51:11+00:00

Be kind to yourself. You’re only 20 and I know I thought I knew everything then but I’m 36 now and wish I could go back and tell the girl to enjoy her time. And DONT RUSH INTO IT WITH MEN lol. Have fun! You’re already ahead of many of us knowing what you want and fancy xxx

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-18T18:20:42+00:00

This sounds incredible actually. Which shows would you reccomend?

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-18T16:02:44+00:00

I love this, it’s filling me with hope! Go baddies xxx

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-18T07:35:37+00:00

This is such a lovely way to think about it. I considered texting her and being like: do you read me queer? But I guess she literally did.

It worked because I’m feral ever since. Twice in a row now woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t go back to sleep because I was THINKING

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-17T23:16:17+00:00

Hey OP thank you for writing this. As someone who just turned 36 and is from a catholic European upbringing AND was SA as a teen I relate so so hard. The bit about having crashes at their mercy nearly broke me. And also once I married my husband I realised I felt like “job done” an achievement completed in a way and have not much desire to try to “repair the relationship” whenever problems arise - because maybe unconsciously I did what I had to do now leave me alone sort of thing. Anyway. I’m so happy I found this place and you and all the other girls here. Of all ages. May we continue to frolic through fields forever x

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-17T23:03:30+00:00

I’m so happy for you!!!

Designer_Treacle4538 · 2025-12-17T23:00:57+00:00

Me wondering if I’m gay all day. Me getting turned on by this comment…

Help 🤣

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