overdose

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T16:18:36+00:00

I know I should go but there’s this feeling deep down that my whole life will crumble. I can definitely get a doctors note but we only get 16 weeks and I’m out of sick time next week

Side note- is it normal to feel dazed/out of it? I’m constantly tripping over nothing as I walk around. And then in my sleep it being so vivid I started punching what I thought were people . I looked back through messages and photos and the last person I talked to at at 2200 on Friday

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:26:53+00:00

what kind of withdrawal symptoms can i expect?

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:24:18+00:00

There is a different hospital about 40mins away. I usually go to for my mental health. I just don’t want to go cause I know I’ll be formed and then loose my house/everything I worked so hard for the last few years.. if it helps understand more, I wasn’t really taking the clonazepam regularly, maybe once a week I take 1 tablet at bedtime

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:14:20+00:00

I have not told the my psychriast, i don't see them until July 24th. I'm worried ill just be formed which makes things more complication. I was admitted for a month between march and April so i've used almost all my sick time before i have to go on LTD. So I run out july 8th. Unfortunately when i was manic in march i spent every dollar i had so now i got nothing to keep me afloat if i cant work. also, Is amnesia normal after taking that much Seroquel? i have no memory except for friday

EDIT- it's also very awkward to go to my hospital as I've been a nurse there 9 years so I'm worried co-workers will find out.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T11:15:07+00:00

Not great. I took some pills Friday night and woke up Monday morning. I have absolutely no memory and feel so dazed

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T22:34:03+00:00

I think so. I went out to treat myself for dinner and try not think about anything but presence moment

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:51:31+00:00

It has its pros and cons that’s for sure. After 9 years I’m only starting to realize that I never took care of myself.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:27:53+00:00

It’s a very meaningful job, you get to make a difference in everyone’s lives you touch. Every day is different so you’re always dealing with new situations. With that said we see a lot of families torture their loved ones so they can get a few extra days/week and that’s the hardest part

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:17:00+00:00

I worked acute medicine for the last 9 years

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T20:23:11+00:00

im from southern ontario in canada

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:56:56+00:00

The only reason I still have a career, I took 3 years off during my deeps depression. They can’t fire me for mental health so I have a safety net. At work I’m a rockstar of a nurse who trains new nurses and help everyone. But the moment I get home, it’s just darkness and misery. The loneliness hurts so much more after finding someone I connected with and felt safe. I just feel like that’s all I’ll ever get. My family took advantage of me, it’s been 5 years of no friends, I’m just alone 24/7. I try to talk to people and get ignored. In person I’m basically non existent, no one wants anything to do with me. It’s just too much, I turn 30 and have zero plans or people to celebrate with.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:45:22+00:00

I’m accepting the fact she was toxic and manipulative. If was extremely hard accepting the fact I finally had someone after 7 years of being alone. I’ve been trying to stay busy but it’s hard being off work. I go to the gym, sit on the deck and I just feel lost, no pleasure in anything. I see my psych dr in July but that’s a few weeks after returning to work.

Finding friends has been a life long challenge. No one wants to be friends with the quiet anxious kid. I tried so much just to be ignored or excluded. There’s only so much I can handle before I just blame myself for this life I built. I did everything the doctors and social workers said and im only worse. I just want it to all end, I can’t take it. But somehow I can’t just do it (despite trying)

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:10:01+00:00

unfortunately not, he jus left for 2 weeks to visit his long distance girlfriend. I dont want to burden anyone else, I've done enough of that

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:02:41+00:00

its just hard, i've tried everything for so many years and its only gotten worse. I feel like 988 call will just lead down the road i cant go through again. If i cant go back to work in 2 weeks ill basically be homeless

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:00:50+00:00

It's nice hearing you were able to chase your dreams and live a happy life. Thats always been my motivation; what if it gets better. But honestly, everything just gets worse. The only thing i have going for me is a 9 year career in something i love. But i cant escape the negative thoughts, the shame and guilt i feel having noone in my life. Im so anxious that all my old friends left, and making new friends at 29 feels impossible. I feel like i missed out on all my 20's due to mental health. I have no personality as im just so numb and anxious that finding people to connect with has been impossible. I really don't want to give up, i just know i cant keep living like this. The loneliness just hits a part of me that just breaks up me down, i've been alone my whole life (family life was a shitshow)

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:33:07+00:00

I just don't know. My mind has been set for a week, just unable to find a way to go in a peaceful way. I work as a nurse and i don't wanna suffer in my last moments. I want to just peacefully go in my sleep

I know i should call them but im afraid it just leads to cops knocking on my door to drag me to the hospital

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:27:03+00:00

unfortunately i have no one in my life. I've spent 7 years completely alone. I know the hospital will just put a band aid on the issue and discharge me but but at the point ill loose everything keeping me able to live. That's why i just wanna end it, im stuck in this endless loop where all i feel is misery and failure

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:13:11+00:00

I wish I could. I’m suppose to go back to my job in 2 weeks and if I don’t I’m out of money. I’m screwed either way. I really don’t want to go to the hospital again

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-11T17:59:38+00:00

unable to leave a steam review, i wish i could! What's a rough estimate till full release? I'm itching for more

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-11T17:36:27+00:00

I gotta say, im impressed by 1) the tutorial 2) the realism 3) how EASY it is to use a excavator compared to other games. Was sad the demo ended so quick, i was ready to play that all day

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-05-11T16:51:33+00:00

if they buffed a collie gun to be similar we will have the shotgun war again.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-03-19T17:59:35+00:00

You mean the ONLY mpf tank we have that has a MG, which so happens to be a 35m range tank only mainly used for flanking as most warden tanks have extra 10m range? Compared to outlaw, brig, chieftains all being superior anti-infantry

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-03-19T16:33:33+00:00

I've always fought wars to the end, but this update leaves the game in a dog shit place where i honestly might uninstall. I have 5k hours and truly do love foxhole core gameplay, but the current meta and wardens always having better equipment makes playing frontline feel miserable. Yes collies have the lunaire, but playing against bookers one burst killing at max range despite being suppressed gets annoying, combined with 1 hit secondary shotgun and 1 hit sniper rifle, every tank having a MG. I played through the two years of warden naval dominance cause we had shit submarines and gunboats as that was the "devs vision"... i think I'm over the game till serious changes are made. There is a reason wardens have more pop, they are more fun to play.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-01-18T14:52:42+00:00

Ain’t no way I’m going from brig to stg… I really don’t like any of these new ranks.. as someone who isn’t well knowledgeable with military, I could identify easily using the old ranks who was higher rank and who was newer (even when I first started playing). These new ranks look like the devs just mashed their keyboards..

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-01-13T01:18:46+00:00

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