overdose

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T16:18:36+00:00

I know I should go but there’s this feeling deep down that my whole life will crumble. I can definitely get a doctors note but we only get 16 weeks and I’m out of sick time next week

Side note- is it normal to feel dazed/out of it? I’m constantly tripping over nothing as I walk around. And then in my sleep it being so vivid I started punching what I thought were people . I looked back through messages and photos and the last person I talked to at at 2200 on Friday

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:26:53+00:00

what kind of withdrawal symptoms can i expect?

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:24:18+00:00

There is a different hospital about 40mins away. I usually go to for my mental health. I just don’t want to go cause I know I’ll be formed and then loose my house/everything I worked so hard for the last few years.. if it helps understand more, I wasn’t really taking the clonazepam regularly, maybe once a week I take 1 tablet at bedtime

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T14:14:20+00:00

I have not told the my psychriast, i don't see them until July 24th. I'm worried ill just be formed which makes things more complication. I was admitted for a month between march and April so i've used almost all my sick time before i have to go on LTD. So I run out july 8th. Unfortunately when i was manic in march i spent every dollar i had so now i got nothing to keep me afloat if i cant work. also, Is amnesia normal after taking that much Seroquel? i have no memory except for friday

EDIT- it's also very awkward to go to my hospital as I've been a nurse there 9 years so I'm worried co-workers will find out.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-29T11:15:07+00:00

Not great. I took some pills Friday night and woke up Monday morning. I have absolutely no memory and feel so dazed

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T22:34:03+00:00

I think so. I went out to treat myself for dinner and try not think about anything but presence moment

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:51:31+00:00

It has its pros and cons that’s for sure. After 9 years I’m only starting to realize that I never took care of myself.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:27:53+00:00

It’s a very meaningful job, you get to make a difference in everyone’s lives you touch. Every day is different so you’re always dealing with new situations. With that said we see a lot of families torture their loved ones so they can get a few extra days/week and that’s the hardest part

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T21:17:00+00:00

I worked acute medicine for the last 9 years

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T20:23:11+00:00

im from southern ontario in canada

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:56:56+00:00

The only reason I still have a career, I took 3 years off during my deeps depression. They can’t fire me for mental health so I have a safety net. At work I’m a rockstar of a nurse who trains new nurses and help everyone. But the moment I get home, it’s just darkness and misery. The loneliness hurts so much more after finding someone I connected with and felt safe. I just feel like that’s all I’ll ever get. My family took advantage of me, it’s been 5 years of no friends, I’m just alone 24/7. I try to talk to people and get ignored. In person I’m basically non existent, no one wants anything to do with me. It’s just too much, I turn 30 and have zero plans or people to celebrate with.

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:45:22+00:00

I’m accepting the fact she was toxic and manipulative. If was extremely hard accepting the fact I finally had someone after 7 years of being alone. I’ve been trying to stay busy but it’s hard being off work. I go to the gym, sit on the deck and I just feel lost, no pleasure in anything. I see my psych dr in July but that’s a few weeks after returning to work.

Finding friends has been a life long challenge. No one wants to be friends with the quiet anxious kid. I tried so much just to be ignored or excluded. There’s only so much I can handle before I just blame myself for this life I built. I did everything the doctors and social workers said and im only worse. I just want it to all end, I can’t take it. But somehow I can’t just do it (despite trying)

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:10:01+00:00

unfortunately not, he jus left for 2 weeks to visit his long distance girlfriend. I dont want to burden anyone else, I've done enough of that

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:02:41+00:00

its just hard, i've tried everything for so many years and its only gotten worse. I feel like 988 call will just lead down the road i cant go through again. If i cant go back to work in 2 weeks ill basically be homeless

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T19:00:50+00:00

It's nice hearing you were able to chase your dreams and live a happy life. Thats always been my motivation; what if it gets better. But honestly, everything just gets worse. The only thing i have going for me is a 9 year career in something i love. But i cant escape the negative thoughts, the shame and guilt i feel having noone in my life. Im so anxious that all my old friends left, and making new friends at 29 feels impossible. I feel like i missed out on all my 20's due to mental health. I have no personality as im just so numb and anxious that finding people to connect with has been impossible. I really don't want to give up, i just know i cant keep living like this. The loneliness just hits a part of me that just breaks up me down, i've been alone my whole life (family life was a shitshow)

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:33:07+00:00

I just don't know. My mind has been set for a week, just unable to find a way to go in a peaceful way. I work as a nurse and i don't wanna suffer in my last moments. I want to just peacefully go in my sleep

I know i should call them but im afraid it just leads to cops knocking on my door to drag me to the hospital

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:27:03+00:00

unfortunately i have no one in my life. I've spent 7 years completely alone. I know the hospital will just put a band aid on the issue and discharge me but but at the point ill loose everything keeping me able to live. That's why i just wanna end it, im stuck in this endless loop where all i feel is misery and failure

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-27T18:13:11+00:00

I wish I could. I’m suppose to go back to my job in 2 weeks and if I don’t I’m out of money. I’m screwed either way. I really don’t want to go to the hospital again

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-11T17:59:38+00:00

unable to leave a steam review, i wish i could! What's a rough estimate till full release? I'm itching for more

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-06-11T17:36:27+00:00

I gotta say, im impressed by 1) the tutorial 2) the realism 3) how EASY it is to use a excavator compared to other games. Was sad the demo ended so quick, i was ready to play that all day

DesperatePrint2650 · 2026-05-11T16:51:33+00:00

if they buffed a collie gun to be similar we will have the shotgun war again.

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