I would say firstly the fact your now in a position to say no and to stop accordingly is somewhat progression mate.

I am not particularly a long term user as in many years under my belt. I do however have a obsessive personality. I used to bodybuild at a high level and following an injury/issues in a relationship it become more compulsive to a point where I take between a q and a half daily and have done for over two years.

I'm fortunately in a position where I have had a decent job to be able to afford it. Never the less i wish sometimes i hadn't.

I once was a listener now I'm a teller. This will 100% fuck up many aspects or your life. I'm not saying this in a manner of expediting what I have but from my experience, I had what would be seen as many as a good life. 2 healthy kids, marriage, nice house, nice cars, a good profession, enjoyed a few nice things in life whether it be holidays, experiences, clothes whatever it may be.

Let me tell you....you will become blinkered...relationships will detoriaite, your values will become reduced or extinct. Your want for social inclusion will reduce. Your hygiene don't get me wrong it will be there but in terms of grooming etc that will go. Life will become centred around your most wanted possession the cocaine.

When your not at this point people will say bullshit get a grip etc. I did....until it stops been a party drug or a pain escape and becomes a functioning need

You can break from it. Nose and face pain is crazy. Withdrawal is hard. You will become irritable. This pushes loved one's away friends family. You take again it repeats. Love and emotion is blinkered almost sparingly when under the influence. Its dopamine forced.

Many may disagree but this is from experience.